In the stillness I quake with sobs
A shadow of who I could be
Lost, afraid and alone
There is no coming back for me
I will never know the joy
The joy I had before you
I will never see my life unshadowed
Because when I turn around its you
Like a thief slipping in silently
To always remind me of the worst
Filling my head with your lies
Until I feel as though it might burst
How is it, that in all our madness
I never understood the capture
The prisoner I was to you
When we could have had rapture
Not hate but happiness
Would it have been so bad
There was never a chance
Now I am empty alone and sad
I reach toward that shaking shadow
A wish of comfort I cannot give
How am I to help myself
When each day I barely live
