I lay awake listening to my heart beating
It is the only sound in my quieted room
I slow my breath and lie so still
Is this darkness my impending doom
In all my imaginings I never think I will leave
I can never trust my ability to see beyond these walls
I lay unmoving waiting for a sun that cannot rise
Am I waiting here only so that I can stall
Every time my heart takes flight it is short lived
I am afraid to ever again see it through
Do I believe in me enough to soar
Or will this be all I ever see myself do
I stare out this window at the stars
Oh how they sparkle in this midnight sky
I will walk alone it is a fate I understand
But will my dreams ever reach that mountain so high
Everything I see and everything I do
It cannot be done in vain
I will not let these dreams crumble at my feet
I cannot take anymore of this useless pain
