Do I still love you

Flight

ARIZONA POV
I'm nervous about everything. About Sofia, Callie but mostly the flight. FLIGHT. I'm kinda freaking out right now. We are standing in middle of the airport after we watched April and Matthew getting married. It was beautiful. Every wedding brings me memories of my own with Cal- "Momma, we have to go" Sofia said as she saw that I was kinda lost in my thoughts. So this is it. "Momma are you scared?"  Sofia said " Yes honey, but just little bit. I have you with me. So that makes it 1000x times better. Come on we hove to go" Sofia smiled, so we went to the airplane. As we sat down sort of nausea  started  running all over my body, but then my phone buzzed. I thought it was April but it was Calliope. Oh no no no no Calliope just Callie.
Texting;
C: How are you?
A: I'm fine. Why?
C: ARIZONA ROBBINS I know you are not fine. I know you forever  and I know you like nobody else so I know that you are not fine!
A: Okay okay I might have been feeling like I'm gonna throw up any time soon.
C: Just think about good things like Sofia, your new clinic, tiny humans you get to save, me, New York.
A: Thank you so much. I guess you still know me like nobody else.
C: It was nothing and you bet I do.
A: hahah
End of texting
Sofia have been asleep like for 2 hours now and I've been thinking about Callie. I didn't want to but I had to. She really can calm me down like nobody else and I've missed her so much. Maybe not that much as lover but as my best friend, but as lover very much too. She was invincible. Carina was awesome but she wasn't her. She wasn't able to calm me down like Callie when my nightmares came back. But Callie doesn't know about my nightmares came back and I'm about to keep it that way. Sofia doesn't know too so it's ok, because she won't tell her. I know I still love her. I was scared to admit that I still love her but I had to. She was my life once. My better half. My soulmate. My wife. We both screwed it up big times but I think we are pass it. At least I hope. I am kinda glad that she is single now. To be honest I don't want relationship right now. Because I haven't been single for a while and I have to find my self again. But I'm really exited to see her, because every time like I said she make me smile even through texting.
Sofia wake up because the plane started shaking. I wildly opened my eyes and every single memory came back from the plane crash. Me screaming, Mark dying in my hands, wolfs around Lexie's dead body. Derek. Cristina not able to find her shoe. Meredith. Jerry. Oh my god Jerry. My leg, that was still there but I saw my bone. Blood coming through my mouth. EVERYTHING.
I froze, but then Sofia started talking. "Hey Momma, it is ok now. It was apparently just turbolance" then she took my hand and started grabbing circles. "Momma everything is fine. We are about to go down at 15 minutes so we are going to see mama." Sofia said. "Ok thank you, you calmed me down. What would I do without you honey?" I gave her kiss on forehead and then I realized that I'm going to see Calliope in only 15 minutes so I decided to text her.
Texting:
A: We are about to go down in 15 minutes and can't wait to see you.
C: Ok I'm gonna be there in 5 minutes and I can't wait to see you too.
A: See ya in bit.
End of texting
I don't know if I meant with that text that just I can't wait to see her or me and Sofia can't wait to see her. For sure both of us.