Do I still love you

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ARIZONA POV
We were here for a weak. Next day after we arrived I had a peds case. It was so good. I kinda missed peds but I found my self at fetal. Here I could do both because I was one of the best at. This peds case was a 7 months old baby boy. He was amazing. His parents left him here. He had a heart condition and diabetes. I was coming to see him every my break. I didn't see Callie that much because there very so many cases. We FaceTime Sofia every day. I can wait to see her. It was almost lunch time so I had a break. Every break I went feed this baby boy. He haven't had name and we haven't named him yet. I grabbed his milk and went to warm it.

"Hi baby boy." I said as I picked him up
"Are you healing?" I said as I smiled at him and I started feeding him
"I see you found your favorite." Hibo said as he stood next to me
"This little boy has my heart." I said as I smiled at him
"He hasn't name yet?" Hibo asked
"No. They haven't named him yet." I said
"Why don't you name him?" Hibo
"Really?" I asked
"Yes" Hibo said
"Can you help me. I would like to give him a African name." I said
"Every African name mean something. Like Chipo for a girl mean a gift." Hibo said
"He is brave." I said
"Brave and fearless is Jabari." Hibo said
"It fits him. Hi Jabari." I said and he smiled at me
Hibo started walking away but he stopped and turned and said
"You would be incredible mother to him." He said and walked away

Was he talking about adoption. I would be lying if I said I hasn't been thinking about it. But I'm not even sure if Callie want a child. Sofia. How she would take it. But when he smiled at me for the first time I thought my heart is going to melt. He was in big pain but still smiling. I was so scared when I operated on him. But he is hopefully out of the woods.

I had consults all day and two urgent surgeries on two mothers. One of them I have got to save the baby and the mother. The second one I lost the mother I saved the baby. It was devastating. I was devastated. I was still thinking about what Hibo said. Isn't this only about my uterus? My head was full of thoughts. It was almost 1 am and I was coming back to the cottage. Callie texted me when she arrived home and she talked with Sofia. I want to ask her about kids but I don't know how.

I came home and went into the sower. I was still thinking about the mother I lost today and her baby. Her baby is going to grow up without a mother. I was thinking about the kid I love and could save. Jabari's parents left him here. He is sick and need good care for him. Me and Callie have that. Sofia would love a baby. I was completely lost in my thoughts as I completely forgot that I was in a shower. I lost track of time and I woke up Callie.

"Arizona? Are you okay in there?" Callie asked
"Yeah. Just hard day." I said
"Okay. Should I wait for you?" Callie asked
"Go sleep Calliope. But thank you." I said

I came out of the shower. Dry myself. Changed into pj's and went quietly to the bedroom. I entered the bedroom and Callie was still awake. Waiting.

"Hi honey." She said
"Hi." I said and I climbed into bed and kissed her
"Lost a patient?" She asked
"Yeah. It was hard. Her baby survived. I feel like I could do more but I don't know what. Now her child is going to grow up without a mother." I said
"Oh Arizona." She said and hugged me
"I know you did the best you could. Sometimes it is just not enough." She said as a tear escaped my eye
"I didn't want to cry. I can't cry every time I lose a mother." I said and I wiped my tears
"I know." She said and she was spooning me.
She fell asleep but my mind was still on Jabari. I couldn't fall asleep before I talked to her. I decided to wake her up.

"Calliope?" I asked
"Are okay honey?" She asked with her eyes closed
"No. Yes. I don't know. I need to tell you something or ask you something. I would wait to the morning but I can't sleep. My head is full of it." I said and she sat and and turned on the lamp
"Tell me." She said and I took a deep breath prepared for anything
"Did you ever thought about having a baby after my miscarriage and the divorce?" I asked carefully
"I think yes. I did. Why?" She asked
"Next day after we came I had this peds case." I said
"Yes you told me about it. The little boy who was left here by his parents." She said
"Yes. I named him today and i have this special bound to him. I can't leave him here. It would be the one of my biggest regrets. So I wanted to ask you if you want to adopt this little boy with me. I know it..it is-" I was cut of by her lips on mine
"Of course I do Arizona." She said and tear escaped from my eye
"Of course we have to ask Sofia first. I think she will agree." I said
"I love you more than a life itself Arizona Robbins." She said
"I love you more Calliope Iphegenia Torres." I said
"We are having a baby boy." She said
"We totally are." I said
We went sleep again. She was spooning me. I was so happy.