Do I still love you

Feeling

CALLIE POV
We were leaving this afternoon. It was 7 am here and Arizona had already her last surgery done. Jabari is flying home with us. We talked to Sofia about him and she was so happy. We going to need to finish adoption in New York. Jabari was sleeping in my hands. He was so cute. His chocolate skin was perfectly matching with his sparkly blue eyes. Just like Arizona's.

"Hi honey." Arizona said as she came back and kissed me and Jabari in his forehead.
"Hi." I said and smiled
"Richard called you like a hour ago. He hang up before I could take it." I said
"Yeah I forgot my phone here." She said and took her phone and called Richard

"Hi Richard. What's up?" Arizona asked and there was silence for a while because Richard talked
"Who died?" Arizona asked and I stood up and there was a silence again
"How's Carina?" She asked with running tear down her face
"I will be there in a day. We are in Africa. I'll explain everything when I will get there." she said
"I know how she is feeling." Arizona said
"Bye." She said and hung up her phone

"What happened?" I asked
"Andrew died. I need to go to Seattle." She said
"I will go with you.' I said
"Callie you need to fly for Sofia. She can't fly of her own. Then you will fly to Seattle. Is it okay?" She said crying and I hugged her
"What about Jabari?" I asked
"I will take him to Seattle." She said
"Yeah this is probably the best way. Take private plane I will go by regular first class. It's better with Jabari." I said
"I need to talk with Carina." She said
"Your hot Italian ex-girlfriend?" I asked
"Yes. She lost a brother. I know how she is feeling." She said
"Okay."
We packed and left  for the airport. All ride we were silent but she was holding my and. I know that's enough for her. We made our way to the airport.

"Are you going to be alright all day in a plane?" Callie asked
"It will be hard. But I have this one with me and there are more important things." She said
"Okay. Remember that I love you two." I said and kissed her
"Wee love you too. We will miss you." She said and kissed me again
"I will be there in two day top. I will miss you two too." I said
"Tell Sofia I love her." She said and kissed me for the last time and walked off to her gate to get out for the private plane

She is going to be with Carina. My body is full of jealousy, but she lost her brother so I got Arizona. But still kinda not liking the idea.

ARIZONA POV
I was sitting in the plane. Jabari was in my arms sleeping. This is going to be a long flight. I called Mer is she could pick me up at the airport in 20 hours and that I have a surprise. I was watching some film as tears started coming down on my face. Then Jabari squeezed my finger.

"You are my boy isn't you." I said

We landed around 9:30 pm. Jabari was fed so he was sleeping. I walked out of the the airport and saw Mer.

"Arizona? Why is this little cutie with you?" She asked
"This is our son." I said
"Richard said you were with Callie in Africa. You adopted him?" Sh asked
"The papers are not done yet. But he will be." I said
"What is his name?" Mer asked
"Jabari. It's African name." I said
"Little Jabari. I like it." Mer said
"We should go." She said

We got into the car and I put Jabari into his baby seat.

"How he died?" I asked
"He was stabbed." She said
"Oh my god. How is Carina?" I asked
"Not good. She will be glad to see you. She has a girlfriend now but she don't know what to do." Mer said
"I know how is she feeling. I've been there. I know we broke up and I'm with Callie. But I cared about her. I need to help her with it. Callie is gonna be here in two days with Sofia.  She tried to hide but she is jealous as hell. I don't think of Carina sexually. I just want to help her. Give her the feeling that somebody knows how she is feeling. We got new lives." I said
"I know." Mer said
"Where we are going?" I asked
"To hospital. There is going to be memorial video for him." She said
"It will be hard. How are you holding up?" I asked because I knew they had a thing
"It's hard. I lost another person. You know how it feels." She said
"Yeah. I know the feeling too well." I said

We talked through the ride. Babysitter was babysitting Mer's kids and she agreed she will babysit Jabari for the time we will be away.

We made our way to the hospital. Wave of nostalgia ran through my body.

"Nostalgia?" Mer asked
"I wish I would be coming back with happier time." I said as we parked I saw Teddy sitting on the sidewalk
"What is wrong with her?" I asked
"She was the one who was operating on him. He bleed out in her hands." Mer said
"I will to talk to her. When does it start?" I asked
"In 1o minutes." Mer said
"I'll be there." I said and I went sit down next to Teddy

"Hi Teds." I said
"Arizona what are you doing here?" She asked and she hugged me
"Andrew was one time for me like my brother. And Carina need my help. I heard what happened." I said
"It is my fault." She said and she started crying and I hugged her
"Theodora you are amazing surgeon. You did the best I believe. But sometimes it's over our powers. This is not your fault." I said
"I don't know what to do." She said
"I will tell you what to do. You will go home with Owen. You will eat and sleep." I said
"Owen hates me." She said
"Maybe he is mad at you right now but he loves you. Trust me." I said and I got up and went search for Owen

"Owen." I said
"Arizona? Nice to see you." he said and hugged me
"I wish on better events. Teddy needs your help Owen. She think it's her fault. She doesn't look good." I said
"I can't help her. She cheated on me the whole time with Koracick." He said
"I know. But you cheated too once on Christina. I cheated. Derek did. So many people did. She would do anything for you. Just suck it up and go help her. You love her." I said
"Okay. Thank you Robbins." He said

I waved at everybody when I went to find Carina. I found her sitting on a chair and pretty blonde was holding her hand. I'm glad she found someone.

"Carina." I said and she turned around
"Arizona?" She said and hugged me and started crying
"I'm so so sorry."I said and she cried even more
"I don't know how keep going. It is just too hard." She said
"I know exactly how you feel. It is going to hurt for while and then you will be okay. You will miss him but you will live for him." I said
"How can you know how am I feeling?" She asked
"I lost my brother too. Most people don't know it." I said
"I'm so sorry." She said still crying and the video started playing she grabbed my hand and was holding it. I totally forgot about her girlfriend

"Oh my god. I'm so sorry. I'm Arizona Robbins. I totally agree if you want me to stand anywhere else." I said
"I'm Maya Bishop. Its okay. You are the thing she needs right now. You understand her." She said and she gave me a sad smile
"In a while you will be the thing she will need. Just give her a time." I said and she nodded

The video started playing and everybody cried. She was holding my hand. I hate this feeling.