Do I still love you

Truth

1 and half months later

CALLIE POV
Arizona has been out of hospital for almost a month. Teddy, Amelia and Mer flew back like a month ago. Arizona still not eating. Not talking about it. Pushing down her emotions. Sofia sees it too but she's bigger now. She understands it. Arizona is talking to Addison and Nicole more than to me. I get it they got nominated for Fox award so they can win it. Arizona still hasn't showed her emotions about it. She started working slowly again. I need to talk to her about her eating tough. It is not going to be nice.

She came back from work and I did dinner. We were eating and Sofia was telling us about her day. I watched Arizona and she ate only like 4 bites. She lost so much weight.

It was already late so Sofia was already asleep and me and Arizona were watching some show and I decided to speak up.

"Arizona we need to talk." I said
"Okay. Go on." She said and turned off TV
"I don't know how to put this so I will go straight into the point. You are not eating again." I said
"I am eating Calliope." She said
"Don't "Calliope" me. I see you. I know you. You are pushing down your emotions. You lost something." I said and She got up from the couch
"No Callie. We are not going to talk about it. I'm absolutely fine. I lost something ok? But I kinda got used to that." She said almost yelling
"Okay we don't have to talk about it but start eating. Do you know how much damage it is doing to your body?" I said
"My body is damaged enough to I don't know what Callie. I'm not talking about-" she was cut off by her phone

ARIZONA POV
We were in middle of a fight and my phone cut me off.
"I'm gonna take this." I said and I walked off to the porch

I looked at the screen and I didn't know the number so I picked it up.

Arizona is the bold text
"Dr. Arizona Robbins is speaking."
"Hi Dr. Robbins we are from Carter Madison grant."
"Hi. May I ask why are you calling me?"
"African kids are not doing well there so the pregnant women. We wouldn't even ask taking look at your last experience but we are running out and you can deny. Would be there possibility you would fly to the Africa for two weeks?"
"Yes. Just send me the details and I will be there."
"We really appreciate it.

They said and I hung up. Am I really that broken that I am coming back. I think now nothing matters anymore.

I went back to the living room probably continue the fight.

"What's up?" Callie asked
"I am going to Africa." I said calmly
"What are you saying?" Callie said and stood up
"The Carter Madison centrum called and they need help. So I am going." I said
"What? How can you?" She said
"I am going." I said
"Don't you remember what happened last time you flew to Africa. You almost died. Mark and Lexie died." She said and I felt the anger coming up
"You think that I don't remember? I remember everything. Into every detail. You know that I am seeing therapist but do you think that all the bed dreams are gone? No they are always there. I see it almost every week in my sleep. Every single detail. I can even feel the pain. You don't even know how am I jealous about you dreams. So don't ask me whether I remember because I do." I said angry
"I'm sorry Arizona but you don't tell me anything. We should talk about your fears. We are partners. I could've helped you." She said
"And how could I have tell you? You wouldn't have understood. You aren't slightly broken like me. And I don't want to talk about it. I can't talk about it. I don't know how to talk about it." I said
"Arizona." She said and I went into my room grabbed few thing and went back down.
"Where are you going?" Callie asked
"To the hospital." I said
"Are you going to cheat?" Callie said and I turned around and faced her
"Oh thank you. I thought you are never going to bring this up. I did a mistake and I think I paid enough for it. So thank you I hope you are happy with yourself." I said and I walked off

CALLIE POV
I am such a jerk. What have I done. What have I said. I changed up and I went into my old room because I couldn't sleep in Arizona's. It just didn't feel right.

ARIZONA POV
I woke up at 6 am at the on-call room. I am leaving at 9 am and I need to go to the Nicole and Addison and let them now. I need to go back home to pack my stuff. I hope Callie won't be there and Sofia I hope she will be there with nanny.

I went to the Nicole's the Addison's and I let them know that I will be gone for two weeks. They were okay.

I went back home. It was around 8 am. I walked in and no sign of Callie being home. I walked into Sofia room and softly woke her up.

"Sofia, honey wake up." I said
"Hi mommy." She said kinda sleepy
"I need to leave for two weeks. I need to go help little children and pregnant women. I will be back soon." I said
"I will miss you. But save all of them please." She said
"I will try. I'll miss you too so much. Nanny is gonna be here in 5 minutes. Mama will be here with you too. I will FaceTime when I can." I said
"Okay. I love you mommy." She said
"I love you so much honey. Now go back to sleep." I said no she hugged me

I packed and went to the airport. Private plane was waiting for me. 11 hours flight. Im not sure if I thought this through enough anymore, but there is no way back.

I started walking towards the plane. I gave my suitcase to the steward and greeted all the stuff and pilot.
I walked into the plane and there was sitting somebody completely unexpected.

"Callie what are you doing here?" I asked
"I am going with you." She said
"Callie you can't. Who will watch Sofia?" I asked
"My dad and yes I can. I talked with the Carter Madison chief and they need all the hands." She said
"Callie no." I said
"Arizona I am staying whether you like it or not." She said
"Ok. Just don't talk to me." I said and sat in the middle of the plane. There is no way I am sitting in the back. We all know why. But Callie was sitting there and I just couldn't.

"Callie please go sit somewhere else." I said
"Why? I like this seat." She said
"Just don't sit in the back. Lexie sat there." I said and she immediately understood

We started flying up and I already felt the anxiety but I could let know my fear."

CALLIE POV
We are flying 3 hours and Arizona is doing great job hiding her feelings. I just can see her pain. In her eyes even when she hasn't looked at me once through his flight.

I was drowning in my thoughts as some sniffing got me back into my reality. I knew who it was so I stood up and I went to her. I hugged her. She tried to fight me but I knew what she needed. She stopped fighting and she was in my arms letting go all her pushed feelings. She was in my arms crying.