Do I still love you

Shuting down

ARIZONA POV
I'm hearing voices again and I can tell where am I.

"Am I dead?" I asked
"Not yet." Nick said
"Nick?" I said
"Hi Phoenix." He said and I hugged him
"Arizona you need to fight harder." Lexie said
"I can't anymore. I just can't." I said
"You fight like a girl. You are weak. You are embarrassing me." Tim said
"I know what are you trying to do, but it's not working." I said
"You are so strong blondie. You have a power you don't even know about. Trust me." Mark said
"Give me a minute to catch a breath." I sat there watched them. How I missed them. But it's not my time yet.

"Robbins, tell Meredith that I'm watching her and that I'm good. Tell her to find a love again. Tell her that I miss her and to kiss our kids for me. Ellis is just like her and that I love her even I didn't met her. Tell he I love her." Derek said
"Will do." I said
"Now get up and go." He said
"I miss you. All of us do." I said
"I miss you too." He said and I got up and walked through the door. again.

CALLIE POV
Everybody moved into gallery to watch Arizona. I realized I didn't tell Barbara about Arizona's uterus.
"Barbara, Arizona lost her uterus and all of her eggs." I said
"Oh my god." She said
"I'm so sorry." I said as I hugged her
"Addison did everything she could, but Arizona would bleed out if Addison didn't take it out." I said
"Thank you." She said
"For what?" I asked
"For being here. I know you don't have to be here. You are divorced." She said
"She would be here for me even if we were in our biggest fight." I said
And then we were in silence. It was 5 hours since they took Arizona into surgery.

We were still sitting in the chair when somebody really unexpected ran through the door. I stood up and I walked towards her.

"Yang?" I asked
"Torres. I'm so sorry." She said and she hugged which  I was really shocked about because I think we only hugged like once and I was good with it
"What are you doing here?" I asked
"You think that I would let Arizona die? Never. She was with me in the plane crush. If she survived that she can survive this." She said and ran to through O.R.doors.

"Who's that?" Daniel asked
"One of the most brilliant heart surgeons." I said
"That's good, isn't it?" He asked
"The best." I said

We sat there for another like three hours and they finally came out of the O.R. We stood up.
"How's she?" I asked
"She is out of the woods." Teddy said and I literally hugged her
"Thank you." I said
"Thank all of us." She said
"Where is she now?" I asked
"They are taking her to her room. You can go in." She said
"Thank all of you." I said and some of them went sleep and some of us went sit into Arizona's room

Hours pasted and everybody is sleeping in a on-call room. Now it was only me and Arizona's parents in the room and we were sitting in a silence. Barbara stood up and went buy some food from vending machine. I was sitting by her side looking at her.

"You still love her, don't you?" Daniel asked
"I fell for her all over again." I said as I took her hand in mine
"She never stopped loving you, you know." He said
"I never stopped fully loving her too." I said
"We all knew it." April said standing at the door

Everybody was in the room again. It was about 8 in the morning.

"And how did you know about Arizona?" I asked Cristina
"You think that Meredith didn't call the cardio god?" She asked
"Hey, you wouldn't be god if the bigger god hadn't trained you." Teddy said
"Hey and I have in my blood Ellis Grey, Meredith Grey and Richard Webber."
"Relax all of you were kinda great." Cracking and whispering voice flew through the room, but sweet as always and everybody stopped talking.

"Oh my god." I said as we all turned to see her
"Do you have any pain?" Teddy asked
"Just my chest hurts and I feel like I was hit by a car." She said and we all threw a face
"Okay too early to be joking." She said and we all laughed
"Everybody out of the room we need to do a check up. Even you Callie get out." Teddy said sternly
"Okay, okay." As we all stood up and went out

ARIZONA POV
Teddy, Mer, Amelia, Link, April and Addie were in a room.
They all examined me. Hand looked good, my brain too, belly was little bit worse and my heart was not good. They stood there and were looking at me as I wondered why is Addie here.

"Guys. Can you please leave? I need to talk with Arizona." Addison said seriously
"Of course." Mer said and they walked out of the door.
"Why are you here Addie?" I asked
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about." Addison said
"What happened?" I asked more seriously
"When they bring up I examined you. Your uterus was twisted and your eggs weren't in good shape. From it, it was bleeding into your belly. But there was Mer, Bailey and April working..." She paused as I reached down to my belly and felt the scar
"You had to take it out and the eggs." I said as a single tear escaped from my eye
"I'm so sorry." She said
"It's okay. I know these procedures. They are hard to save. I knew you did the best to save it." I said
"It still wasn't enough." She said
"Addison stop. You did everything in your power. Sometimes things don't go our way. Look at me. I've been in second car accident, were in a plane crash and shooting. Lost a leg, cheated, went through miscarriage, divorce, custody battle, my brother died and more and more. Just we have to keep going. You will be good." I said
"Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry, you are the hurt one here and I'm here just complaining." She said
"It's okay. But I have a favor." I said
"Tell me." She said
"Can you tell everybody that I was tired and I'm sleeping . I just can't copy with all of them right know. I need to think." I said
"Of course." She said
"Thank you." I said as she walked out of the door

I can't believe it. I've lost another thing. I know that I wouldn't probably had have kids again, but still. There's something missing from me again. Again I'm defeated.