Do I still love you

The note

CALLIE POV
They rushed from trauma room to OR and I just sat there. I was totally useless. I ran after them and Miranda stopped me.

"How is she?" I asked
"I'm not gonna lie it's not good. She has bleeding into her brain but Amelia said it's a really small. She has broken hand in two places but Link is going to easily fix it, but her heart isn't in good shape so is her spleen and kidney. Teddy is going to do everything in her power to fix her heart and Mer, April and I to fix her spleen and save her kidney." Miranda said
"Do whatever to save her!" I said
"There is one more thing." Miranda said
"Tell me." I said
"Her uterus and eggs are not looking well. Addie said it's raptured and there is a chance she will have to take it out. That would mean..." Miranda said and I interrupted her
"It would mean that she wouldn't be able have kids." I said and she nodded. I was totally crushed.
"Like I said do whatever you need to save her!" I almost yelled and Miranda went back and I just stood there

"Callie we should go sit to the waiting room." Alex said
"No. We are going to sit in a gallery." I said and I started walking
"It is not a good idea. Go sit to the waiting room." Alex said
"No. No I need to be with her." I said and I went sit in the gallery

Alex locked door after him, because we didn't want anybody to see Arizona on a table.

I just sat here. It was 3 hours. Three hours that they have begun the surgery and it wasn't looking good. I remembered the note and the little box. I searched for the note and started reading it.

Dear Calliope I was called into hospital. I know we haven't had time to talk about last night and I didn't want to talk to you like this but I'll be in hospital all day and you all night and i think we wouldn't make it. We would explode from our emotions and feelings. Last night wasn't just about sex. It was something different. It was about us being so close to each other again. I love you and I guess I have always loved you. I just buried the feeling deep down because you were so far from me. But the truth was that New York wasn't only for Sofia but for me too. Every time even through FaceTime when I saw you the love for you started to coming out again. I don't know what we are, but I know that I don't wanna label us yet. I love you so much. I don't know what I would do without you and Sof. I hope your day is gonna be great.
I love you and in that box you have a little present for you!

I just started crying even more and I pulled out the little box. It was packed in a gold paper. I unwrapped it and I opened it and stayed in shock. It was so beautiful. She know so well. Alex saw it and her putted on me.

"Robbins has a style." He said and I just stayed shocked

Another hour was behind us and it started look better.
But then she started crushing we stood up and I wanted to run down but Alex stopped me. Both of us were glued on the gallery glass. They pushed epi nothing. The charged paddles and started compression.
First minute without heartbeat.
Second minute without heartbeat I started thinking about all the things I wanted to tell her but I was scared.
Third minute without heartbeat I started thinking about all the things we wanted to do but we didn't.
Fourth minute without heartbeat I started thinking about all ours fights and how stupid they were.
Fifth minute without heartbeat I started thinking about Sofia. She can't loose Arizona.
Sixth minute without heartbeat I started thinking about me. What I would do without her. I wouldn't never recover.
Seventh minute without heartbeat I started thinking about my love for her and how it is kinda twisted.
Eight minute without heartbeat my hope started fading. But I can't loose hope for Arizona.

ARIZONA POV
I woke up on our bed in Seattle. What am I doing in Seattle? I smelled food. I stood up and went to kitchen and there was Lexie and Mark.

"Robbins!" Mark yelled and I ran up to him to hug him
"Mark, Lexie? What is this. Am I dead?" I said
"If you won't fight you might be." Lexie said
"What happened?" I asked still confused
"You had another car crash." Somebody said behind me. It was familiar voice who I haven't heard in very long time
"Tim?" I saw him a hugged him
"I've missed you Phoenix." He said
"I've missed you too." I said
"You need to fight." He said
"I don't have another fight in me anymore. I can't anymore." I said
"Robbins one more time." I heard another voice Derek with Henry stood there
"Shepherd and Henry." I said and I hugged them too
"I missed all of you so much guys." I said
"We missed you too." Mark said
"I just can't anymore." I said
"You need to. If not for you then for Sofia, Callie and all of yours fiends." They said
"I will try just give me a another minute here here." I said and I just sat there and watched them cooking and talking as Tim sat next to me
"I'm so proud of you Phoenix." Tim said
"Thank you." I said
"It's time for you to go." He said and I knew it too
I stood up and walked out of the door knowing everybody is together

CALLIE POV
After 10 minutes Arizona finally had a heartbeat. I thought I lost her for good. But she is fighter.