Do I still love you

Meaning

ARIZONA POV
I was lying on the porch, watching tv show at 2am and I heard footsteps.
"Can't sleep?" Mer asked
"I've always been overthinker." I said
"Yeah me too." She said
"Are you okay?" I asked
"No." She said
"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked concerned
"Today is the day Lexie died." Mer said
"I know." I said sadly and made a gesture for her to lay with me
"Do you still have anxiety attacks?" Mer asked
"Not as much as I've had them. But honestly I went through one today." I answered
"Does Callie know?" She asked
"No. It was after we had sex and I didn't really wanted to ruin the atmosphere you know." I said
"Ohh. You and Torres had sex. Yeyy finally." She said
"I know you didn't like me." I said with a laugh
"Me? Nooo." She said totally lying
"Don't play it Grey. You had every reason to. I cheated and I was a bitch."
"If she didn't like every person in her life who cheated she would have like one friend." Addie said
"Why aren't you sleeping?" Mer asked her
"I was asleep and then someone started screaming Callies name in next room." Addie said
"Oh I'm sorry." I said and we laughed
"Addie, how we gonna do this." I asked
"I already talked to Jake and we rented a house here for few months so we could work on ur work." Addie said
"Thank you and I have to ask you if you want to start working at our clinic. Money isn..." I got cut of by Addie
"Of course I want to work with you guys." She said
"I heard about Catherine Fox award and congrats. She is serious about you two." Mer said
"It is gonna be stressing." Addie said
"Yeah." I said

Me, Mer and Addie talked like two more hours and they went back sleep. I knew that I won't fell asleep again so I stayed watching Criminal Minds and then I was called about 5am to the hospital. I went quietly back into my bedroom to change and I wrote Calliope note and I gave her a necklace from Cartier I bought for her yesterday with Addie when we went back from hospital. I haven't had a chance to give it to her yet. It's necklace with white gold and diamonds just as much suitable for Callie and her Latina skin.

I went into my car, putted on a seatbelt and began to driving. I was like 5 minutes away from hospital and last thing I remember was car crushing into my car.

How am I lucky to get into two car crashes?

CALLIE POV
I was awakened by my phone who was going insane. I opened my eyes and saw that its 5:30am and Arizona was gone. I looked over to find my phone and when I saw the callers ID I was shocked. It was Nicole and Nicole never calls me so I picked it up.

C- Hi Nicole. What's up?
N- Callie a really bad thing happened and I need for you to stay calm.
C- Nicole you are scaring me. What happened?
N- Arizona got into a car accident and she is being transferred here. It does not look good.
C- I'm gonna be there in a 10 minutes!
N- Okay.

Callie hung up totally in shock, jumped up, took her phone and bag and saw Arizonas note and little box and she threw it into her bag and rushed out of her room to wake everybody.

She rushed into Mers and Aprils room.
"Wake up." Callie said
"What's up?" Mer asked little bit pissed
"Arizona was in a car accident and she is in the hospital now and if she gonna need a surgery you guys gonna operate on her and nobody else!" Callie said with a tears in her eyes
"Oh my god" April said
"April wake everybody, I'm going with Callie to the hospital. Be fast!" She rushed out of her bed so did April and went different ways.

Mers drove and I was just shocked. Tears was screaming down my face, but I felt like I was paralyzed. Then Mer spoke up.
"She is a fighter. She's gonna be okay." Mer said
"I just.. I just don't get it. Shooting, car crash, plane crash and another car crash. Just how?" I asked
"I don't know." Mer said

We arrived to hospital and ran through the opening door and we went straight to trauma room. I stooped in the doors as Mer gowned and started to working on Arizona.

She was unconscious and covered in her blood. Her fake led was totally broken. I just couldn't believe it. I can't lose her. But I needed to pull together my shit and step up. Everybody arrived and they  gowned and they started working on Arizona and so did I.

"What are you doing Callie?" Webber asked
"I'm the best Ortho surgeon here. I'm gonna help her." I said
"You are her family step off!" Jackson said
"We are divorced." I said
"Yes you are but you are still her wife! DR. TORRES STEP OFF!" Richard said sternly and I stepped of and went outside with Alex. I sat down started crying.

"She's is Arizona. Robbins is a fighter and survivor. She will get through it." He said and hugged me
"They need to call Amelia and Link." I said
"I think they already did. Because they were in New York for surgery." He said as Amelia and Link ran through the trauma room to help Arizona.
"Without her. What's the meaning?"