Forever And A Day || Season 1 || Quinn Fabray Story

37. Second Best.

Ryan

I had no words after that performance. But I did have a lot of questions.

Mainly for myself. Things that I'd been blocking out and ignoring for months. And if we're being honest here...Years.

Watching the girls singing 'Express Yourself' was something else. But it was just something that solidified what I already knew deep down. And I have no idea what to do with what I've learned.

When Quinn confronted me in the parking lot about not dictating who she can and can't date, it made me reevaluate everything. When she said all those things about who would want to be with her. I realised she was settling with Puck. She was settling for second best. And she definitely shouldn't be second best, Like she will be if she stays with Puck.

She is the best.

And deserves the best.

Then I realised I was treating her as second best too. When that was the furthest thing away from what I ever thought about her. I was ditching her in the time she needs all the support she can get, and hanging out with a girl. A girl that is amazing, but that I barely know. A girl that also doesn't deserve to be second best.

Why is everything so screwed up.

When the girls sung the words 'Second Best'. It was like Quinn was talking to me. Right at me.

When Quinn was with Finn, I could ignore what I always knew I felt for Quinn. I thought my chance was gone. I never expected her to still be available when I got back from New York. I'd be an idiot to think that. But, I knew she was with him, that she was taken and having his baby. It was easy.

Then when that all fell apart and Puck was proven to be the dad. I was pissed at her. I thought I could move on. I thought I could finally move on. But we went what? Two weeks without talking and it was awful. It's like no matter what we always come back to each other. Everything always comes back to us.
Those two weeks of not talking, felt like New York all over again. And that was something I never want to experience again. Being without her. So I settled for the second best position. The best friend. If my shot at being with her was gone. Then I'd stay by her side no matter what, as a loyal friend. I didn't want to be without Quinn in my life.

But at the weekend with that moment in the car. And then thinking back further to the movie night we shared. Me completely dropping my date with Brooke to run to Quinn's rescue and her never wanting to let me go when I got there. The cold looks I often got from her when it came to Brooke. Anything to do with Brooke that is.

Have I missed my chance?

Or is she just as scared as I am to lose me as a friend... that she's settling for that second best spot too?

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Authors Note: short little chapter this one, but wanted to get Ryan's thoughts in here. Good things are coming...
Wolfie x