Spring was fast approaching as winter went into hibernation. I had been dating Choi Yeonjun for 2 months now. Winter makes me feel less insecure as we are all bundled up to stay warm. With spring barreling in the insecurity arose and for some reason, they hit harder this time around.
Was it because I had a boyfriend or because of my boyfriend's status? Or the people he hung around all the time?
In all reality, I had no idea what the answer to that question was. I just knew I either had to face the problem head-on or... I had to run from it. As impulsive as it sounds I would wait until the last possible moment to see which reaction will show itself. My fight or my flight.
The weather was hot today making us all strip our winter clothes. Shorts, t-shirts, tank tops, crop tops, dresses, and skirts were all being taken out of hiding or bought new. I decided to wear jeans and an oversized t-shirt. It is what I usually wear all year round. The difference was that this was Yeonjuns T-shirt and it was also oversized on him.
Yeonjun was tall and skinny. For his line of work, he was perfect. I was the opposite. I was short and chubby. I ran from my feelings when it came to getting romantically involved with people because I couldn't see myself as good enough so why would they? I became friends with Yeonjun when he ran into me running from some fans. I knew very well who he was but decided to help him instead of fangirl. From that day on we became friends.
What shocked me was that he was open from the very beginning about his feelings towards me. He just didn't want to rush things and push me away. After a couple of weeks, I knew what my feelings were but I was honest with him and my past. One thing I was not honest with that I wish I could have been was my insecurities about my body. I never talked about it and the topic never came up.
Today I walked into the practice room and got greeted by everyone. Yeonjun's face lit up at the sight of me standing in the doorway while the other boys hugged me.
"Hey, beautiful" he smiled at me making me blush then placed a quick peck on my cheek.
"Hi" I barely let out since it was obvious I was flustered.
"Hey (y/n) are you okay?" Taehyun walked over to me looking me up and down.
"Mhm! Yes, why?" I also looked down to see what he was hinting at.
"Are you on your period you look bloated today?" My eyes widened and I went straight to the mirrors plastered on one entire wall of the practice room. Looking in the mirror I saw my face grow 2 times the size it previously was. And saw my body also double in size. I gif my tears wiping them quickly knowing I had to run.
I look at the boys worried at my reaction and Soobin scolding Taehyun.
"Hey, hey, what's wrong?" Yeonjun walked up to me but I stepped back letting the tears fall.
"I am sorry" was all I said before running out.
Yeonjuns POV
I looked back at Taehyun and sigh. I didn't want to make things worst as Soobin had already taken care of it. She thought I didn't know about her insecurities but I knew. It's literally her personality trait. I thought if I expressed my true feelings all of that would go away, But she was still very closed up when it came to hard topics.
"I'll be back I need to know if she is okay!" I walked out and called her. She ignored all my messages and calls but I knew where she was.
"He is-"
"She is in her room crying. I hope you didn't cause this?" Her older brother also in the same industry as me. Under the same company warned letting me in the house.
"No sir it was not me but I need to fix it anyways." He smiled at me and walked away letting me enter her room.
"Go away please," she said between sobs making my heartbreak even more. She was sitting me the corner of her bed with her knees up to her chest and her face buried in her knees. I shut the door behind me and embraced her as soon as I touched the bed.
"Baby? Please stop crying. I don't like to see you cry. It hurts me" She cried harder when I said that.
"How could I not cry. You finally saw what I see in the mirror every day. The rolls, the double chin and that's not even all of it. You still haven't se-" I cut her off by pressing my lips to hers.
"I don't care about any of that. Trust me. I fell for you. Literally, I fell on top of you when I was being chased. I love you the way you are. Should I make Hukai come in here and sing that Bruno Mars song to you?" We both busted out laughing which made me feel better.
"I am sorry I didn't tell you from the beginning. I thought I could hide it."
"You really have me all wrong. I knew from the beginning when we started getting closer. You never want to go shopping with me. You never steal my hoodies or shirt. You don't ever sit on my lap or let me carry you. I may not be as smart as Taehyun that we all now realized is the dumbest in our group, but I know my girl." She smiled at me placing her head on my shoulder.
We sat in silence for a while but it all ended okay.
She also got to give Taehyun a punishment that in my eyes she went too soft with.
THE END
