I was laying in bed waiting for Kwan to wake up. I had already made breakfast for Yeonjun, my husband before work and cleaned up afterwards.
"Mom" Kwan my 7 year old son yelled from his room.
"Yes baby" I asked him walking into the bathroom where he was brushing his teeth already.
"Did dad go to work already?"
"Yes baby why?" I could see his whole demeanor change. It was hard on the both of us. We had moved to Seoul a little while ago from San Jose, Cali. Yeonjun had finally gotten his own place and wanted his family to come live with him. Kwan had started school here in Seoul but was on a break.
"Nothing do you think Beomjun can come over today?" I thought about it for a second but agreed. After getting ready we decided to just go to an amusement and take Beomjun with us.
We picked up Beomjun and had a very fun day at the amusement park. The last few days Yeonjun had been distant so no text or calls were made and you had no idea if he was coming home at a decent hour.
We took Beomjun home but his mom asked if Kwan would like to spend the night. I was worried as it would be his first sleep over but I couldn't deprive him from the experience. Especially since no one knows who is dad is I felt comfortable letting him stay.
I reached an empty home with a note on the kitchen counter.
(Y/n),
Went out with the boys don't wait up for me. Tell Kwan I love him.
Love,
Yeonjun
I rolled my eyes and took a bottle of alcohol out of the cupboard. I didn't even get a glass I just started drinking straight from the bottle.
Anyone right now would be saying my feelings are not valid. That I should be happy my husband still takes care of me and his son. That we have everything. But I sometimes wonder if I never had gotten pregnant at 16 how life would be? I gave up everything for Yeonjun to follow his dreams. I feel like I am stuck in this one spot and have no friends to talk about it with since I am a secret. I called his mom to talk but was too drunk already.
Yeonjun's POV
I was out with the boys wondering what had been going wrong with my marriage. The answer was nothing. I was being stupid. She gave me all the love and support anyone would need. She gave up everything for me and Kwan yet I could not communicate with her properly.
I got a call from my mom which was weird considering what time it was.
*Phone call*
CYJ: hey mom everything okay?
Mom: yes but is everything okay with you?
CYJ: yes why?
Mom: are you with (y/n)?
CYJ: no I'm out with the boys... did she call you is everything okay.
Mom: *sigh* she called me I think she is drunk and kept slurring her words. I tried to get more info but all she did was cry.
CYJ: I have to go bye
*end of call*
"Hey I need to go?" I was going to get up when a girl walked over to talk.
"But I didn't get your number or time to talk to you?" I felt disgusted as a married man but no one knew which made me burst in anger. I carefully took her hand off my chest and rolled my eyes.
"How can you shamelessly flirt with a married man? Yeah I am married and love my wife. I also have a 7 year old kid so walk away please." I picked up my things and walked out. I was too drunk to drive so I started running.
"Hey get in" the boys caught up with me and started driving to my apartment.
"Why didn't you tell us?" Soobin asked a little hurt.
"I was stupid."
"You have a 7 year old meaning..." Taehyun looked over at me not wanting to finish his sentence.
"Yes at 17 I got my wife pregnant. She told me to follow my dreams, but I couldn't live without her anymore. I have a bad feeling I hurt her and I need to fix it." Nothing more was said between us until we got to my apartment.
They all followed me in finding (y/n) sleeping on the couch with an empty bottle of alcohol. I felt horrible just imagining what her feelings were. She hated drinking yet she downed a whole bottle.
"Hey baby wheres Kwan?" I asked shaking her gently.
"At a friends house" she mumbled still in her sleep. The boys left and I took her to bed. I didn't sleep and asked for a couple days off. I knew rumors were going to spread and I needed to spend time with my family.
I picked up Kwan early from his friends house leaving (y/n) sleeping.
"Dad?" Kwan said in the car on the way home.
"Yes?" I looked in the rear view mirror at him then back on the road.
"Do you still love us? Mom doesn't know I hear her cry at night. She does it a lot." We pulled into the car park and I turned to him.
"Look I love both of you so much. I hurt mom not like hitting but I hurt her heart, but don't worry I am going to fix it." We walked hand in hand into the apartment to see (y/n) cleaning.
I walked up to her and kissed her deep. Tears falling from my eyes and hers. Unsaid emotions spiraling out.
"I love you. I am sorry to the both of you. I dragged you out here just to basically abandon you. That wasn't right. I am sorry."
