A Shot of Jin

Love the way you lie (Taejin)

A/N I was asked by @jinniewwh123 to write an Angsty one shot of TaeJin, of you who know me I am not very good at writing angst, so I took her challenge and ran with it, I hope I did okay with it. I based it on the song above, 🔞🚫🔞 There is Abuse, foul language, light sex, death and hinting's of suicide. If this is a trigger please do not read, I cant comment on to why people stay in abusive relationships, but one thing you always hear the victims say, is they stay because they love the person. I'm not an expert so I wont comment. Remember, its just a fictional story. 

Seokjin

We fought again last night, my eye is swollen shut, but his nose is broken so it was a productive night, after we cleaned the blood off each other we fucked each other's brains out, then he finally passed out. I stayed up to clean up the glass, wine, and blood stains. I finally go upstairs and lay down next to him, wrapping my arms around him and falling into a deep sleep. I wake with his arms around me, I snuggle closer to him, my body aches, between the rough sex and the fighting I don't know which was worse. 

I kiss his forehead and get up walking into the bathroom, standing in front of the mirror looking at my naked bruised body, I close my eyes wondering what the fuck I am doing, why I just don't leave, because I cant, I love him and I live for our fights, they are what keep me going. "I'm sorry baby, look at you, Ill never hit again I promise", Tae says wrapping his arms around me. "Tae we should have your nose looked at", I saw the hint of anger in his eyes and I feel the pressure of his hands on my hips as he thinks about me hitting him with the bottle. 

"Ill go to the store and get gauze and medicine, lord knows we both can use it", I say. "Get some more beer too", he says from inside the shower. I throw on some clothes and head out, taking my time, walking down the sidewalk to the nearby drug store, I put on some sunglasses so no one could see my eye. The quiet walk makes my mind race, I want to leave, I deserve better but I cant, he lies to me all the time, but tells me he does this because he loves me. Do I even know what love is anymore, is it a slap, a punch, a cut or is it a hug and a kiss, is it making love slowly and sweetly, because we don't even know how do to that anymore.  

Taehyung

I pace back and forth, where the fuck is he, he left me I know he did, he is cheating on me, I throw the beer bottle against the wall. I pull my hair and scream, I cant breath, it feels like a steel knife in my windpipe, I feel like I am suffocating, but he always resuscitates me so O know I cant live without him. He hates me, where the fuck is he, he should have been back by now, he's leaving me, "NO HE AINT, I WONT LET HIM", I scream. He walks thru the door, bags in hand and my first instinct is to grab him and hold him to me, tears streaming down my face. "Tae what happened, what's wrong", He says concerned. "WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU", I scream and then I punch him. "You better not be fucking cheating on me, you were going to leave me weren't you, you thought about it", I say crying, trying to catch my breath. He gets up and kicks me in my dick, "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU PUNCH ME ASSHOLE", he yells," I came back didn't I, you jackass." 

I roll around on the floor and when he tries to walk past me I grab his foot making him fall, hard to the ground, he rolls over and kicks me in me the face, blood runs out of my nose again, but I get up and tackle him back down, laying on top of him. "Stop please, I'm sorry, I was scared and I know you hate me, but I love you so fucking much Jin", I kiss him, he wipes the blood from my nose. I get up bringing him up with me, he leads me to the kitchen and sits me on the kitchen counter, he starts to clean my nose and applies a piece of gauze and tapes it.

 "We should really get you to a doctor, they need to set your nose before it heals crooked", he says. I wrap my arms around him and hold him to me, I start to kiss his neck and he moans, running his hands down the back of my pants. I hop off the counter and he turns me around pressing me hard against the counter, pulling my pants down and starts to fuck me into oblivion. I don't let him fuck me very often, but when he does its heaven, I cry out as he is being rough, his frustrations with me coming out in our love making, which causes mind blowing orgasms for both of us.

Seokjin

We sit on the couch and watch tv, cuddling. When this is good, its so great, but when its bad, its so bad. When we first met we were so in love, but that love turned to obsession for both of us, and he is still my hero even though he has lost his mind. I never knew that I could love someone so damn much to allow them to lay hands on me daily, and I never thought that I could ever hurt someone the way I hurt Taehyung, Id die for him, and most people would think we were crazy for living this way, but they just don't understand that its our fights that keep me satisfied. I hear my phone ring and I get up to answer it, I walk into the kitchen and talk to my brother about the weekend plans at our parents house, I look forward to those trips, Tae and I act like civil human beings and remember why we fell in love. 

I hang up and stand there for a second, "who was that", he asks. "My"... and before I could finish he slaps me, I push him into the refrigerator and walk out of the kitchen. "WHO THE FUCK WAS THAT SEOKJIN", he screams at me. "MY FUCKING BROTHER", I scream back, "if you would have let me finish my sentence, asshole." He slapped me again, and I pushed him again hard, he fell backward onto the coffee table and broke it. "I need to leave for a bit", I say. "The fuck you are", he pulls me back and I trip falling backward hitting my head on the edge of the side table, knocking the lamp off and shattering it, that's the last thing I remember.

Taehyung 

I know he wants to fucking leave me, well that's not going to happen, I pour the last of the gasoline around the bedroom as he lays on the bed, he hit his head pretty hard, but I think he's alright. The neighbor's must have called the cops, I hear the sirens and banging on the door, Seokjin stirs and sits up holding his head. "What's that smell Tae, what are you doing, are you nuts", he says looking at me. I stand there looking pathetic holding the gas can, "you want to leave me, you don't love me anymore and you want to leave me alone, I cant live without you Seokjin, I cant let you leave me", I say crying. He gets up off the bed and takes the gas can from me, "baby, I am not leaving you, I will be with you forever, I am not cheating on you, its only you and me in this crazy life, who else would want us babe", he wraps his arms around me and kisses me. "Its just you and I", I ask. "Forever Taehyungie", he says, "lets go answer the door so that we don't get in trouble." "Do you promise Jinnie, you will stay with me forever", I ask. "I promise, forever, me and you."

We walk downstairs and hear someone talking thru the loud speaker to come out, Jin opens the door and walks out, I am behind him and I remember that I had the knife in my pocket so I reached in my pocket to throw it on the ground and I heard "FREEZE DONT MOVE", and the minute they saw the knife, someone fired two shots. In seconds everything happened, Jin pushed me out of the way and he fell on top of me. I didn't realize what had happened at first till I felt the blood running over my face, I rolled him off me and I see the bullet hole in his throat and his chest, "JIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINN, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO", I wail, holding him to me. "Jinnie no no no you said you'd never leave me, you promised you would be with me forever, WHAT DID YOU DO", I screamed at the police, "WHAT DID YOU FUCKING DO." I cried over him, they tried every way possible to get me to let go but I wouldn't. "SHOOT ME, FUCKING SHOOT ME, I have no reason to be here anymore anyway, he had no right to take a bullet for me, NO RIGHT", I scream again. 

Time stood still, everything slowed down to a stop after that, they got Jin away from me some how and took us away in ambulances. I sat in jail for 3 months on resisting arrest and causing bodily harm to a police officer, they told me after they took Jin away from me I punched a cop and I didn't want to stop. I did a month and half and was released on probation, I missed Jin's funeral, but when I went to my parents house they told me where he was buried. I found my moms pain meds, and a bottle of wine and made my way to Jin's grave. 

He was buried under a big beautiful weeping cherry tree, I know he would have loved the beautiful flowers that bloomed. I sat next to him and put the beautiful daisies on his grave, I swallowed all the pills and popped open the wine. "I miss you so fucking much, I am so sorry for everything", I drank half the bottle, and laid down on top of his grave. "I love you so much Seokjin, I know I will see you soon, and that you will be waiting for me", I start to slur, and I cant keep my eyes open. That's where they found me the next morning, a few days later they buried me next to my love, so that we could be together forever, just like Jin promised.

The end