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~ 40.2

I don't know how I did it but hers part two of the last oneshot. I thought it would be hard. Actually it basically wrote itself after I knew how I wanted it to end. Anyways enjoy and please don't kill me.

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Tw: mention of Depression and Suicide

Ricky's eyes widened in shock. "Neens, that's not how I meant it." "Then how did you?" She asked him.

He sighed "I just started to get better back then, I never told you that. The day before we were supposed to leave for New York I tried to take my own life. Right before I was about to do it you called me to ask what towels you should bring. It wasn't much, but hearing you talk about our life that was ahead of us made me change my mind for that moment at least."

He stretched out his hand so far that she could take it if she wanted to. "I was the reason you didn't do it?" Nini asked completely stunned. He nodded his head "I couldn't imagine living without you even if it meant hating life itself. That was not ideal back then, but I fought hard and now I'm here."

The curly haired man took a small step forward that went unnoticed by her. "Ricky, I want to get better and fight, but I can't. I'm not strong like you." He shook his head as soon as those words left her mouth. "Yes, you are." "How do you know that I am?" The brunettes questioned.

He smiled to himself, because he knew her well enough to know that if he could juts convince her to take one step away from the edge, he could pull her to him. "Someone who isn't strong would have already jumped. Deep down you know that you can do this, but you are hesitant and that is ok. But we'll do this together." She was still hesitant. he could see it in her eyes. Ricky knew he had to risk it all or he might lose her forever. So, he sat down where he was standing.

"What are you doing?" She asked slightly confused . "I need you to trust me. Just this once. Please sit down, it can be where you are or somewhere else. Wherever you like to." Nini sighed before carefully sitting down where she was standing. "Why am I sitting here now?" Ricky chuckled lightly because the fisty girl he loved more thana anything was back, even if it was just for a moment. It gave him hope that he could do this. That he could convince her.

"I can see that you don't want to do this" He stated. She rolled her eyes "Why else would I be here wanting to jump and you trying to get me not to." The curly haired boy stretched out his hand again "Because I've been in your place. You do not want to die. You want the pain to go away. Am I right?" She hesitantly nodded her head "But this is the only way." "No, its not. I wanted the same thing you did, but I got it through different actions." The brunette slightly moved in her place.

Momentarily Ricky was scared that she would get up and jump, but that was not the case. "What did you do?" She asked. "You know that, but I'll tell you again. I went to therapy and I still do" He answered.

"Was it hard?" Ricky nodded his head "I'm not going to lie to you and tell you it's not, but in the end its worth it. If you actually go through with this, you'll never get to visit Disney land with me next month, you really going to do that to me?" He felt like with a joke he could break the rets of her wall down. It partly worked because she did giggle a bit. "I'm sure someone will go with you." Was her reply. "Neens, you know I wouldn't want to go if I knew that I was supposed to be there with you and you're not with me enjoying it. I do not want you to fight for it just for me, do it for yourself. Fight for the future you deserve. For our future as well."

Nini suddenly stood up, which cause Ricky to do the same. Now both of them were standing in front of each other again. She turned towards the edge. "I want to believe you, I really do. But I know its too late."

He silently cursed himself for believing he had her. "It's not. If i did it you can too and I promise that I'll be here through it all without any exceptions." She turned around to face him and smiled lightly "I love you Ricky. I love you for everything you are willing to do for me to get better, but I can't put this on you as well."

The brunette turned back towards the edge. Her eyes were fixated on the ground she was going to be landing on while her arms hung by her side. This was it, she thought to herself. She was going to jump. In her head she counted down from 3.

3......

2.....

1 ....

Just as she was about to take a step forward, He spoke up. "God damit Nini. You do not get that if you are gone, I would not have less worries on me. I would feel fucking guilty for the rest of my life because I couldn't do anything about you killing yourself. I did not notice that you were not ok, and I could never forgive myself for that. So, if you jump I will too."

Ricky took step after step towards her until he was standing right next to her. He grabbed her hand kissed it. "I can't live without you, so if this is what you want, I will be apart of it."

That took the brunette by surprise. "You really want to do this? With me?" She asked in disbelieve. He nodded his head "I love you and I could never live without you. Especially not if I knew that I could have been with you."

Her small hand was trapped in his large one. This was it, this was the end for both of them. They both took a deep breath before younting down from 5.

„5.."

„4...."

„3......"

„2........"

„1..........."

Just as they were about to jump Nini broke down in tears. She fell to her knees and started sobbing loudly.

Ricky kneeled down next to her and took her small frame into his arms. "Neens, what's wrong?" She did not answer, instead a sob escaped her mouth and she leaned into his chest. "Talk to me baby" The curly haired man whispered into her hair.

"I can't do this, not to you, not to my moms, not to myself." He kissed her forehead "Good, let's get you home."

Ricky picked her up bridal style. But before he reached the door she tapped on his chest, indicating that he should look at her. "What is?" He questioned her with a smile.

He was just glad that he had her in his arms knowing that she was safe. "Why did you so suddenly say you would jump with me?" "Well, I thought I had you convinced until you said that you were doing it for me as well. So, I figured if I showed you that as long as I'm with you I'm ok, that you wouldn't do it and obviously I was right."

She moved slightly in his arms since she wanted him to let her down. "I'm not letting you go, not now, not ever." That were the last words the brunette heard before she fell into a deep slumber. In the arms that would forever keep her safe.

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At first I wanted to write a sad and a Happy End, but I decided against it. The das ending would have been that both jumped off and ended up in heaven together. I hope y'all enjoyed this more than the last part.

If any of this is wrong I'm sorry but this is how I would imagine something like this going down. I personally haven't been a situation like that, thank god I haven't, but I've added a few things people have told me.

Never forget that you're strong. Fighting is always worth it, even if it doesn't look like it.