could this be real? (bvb fan fiction)

tears

Once I was in the waiting room I saw everyone, Mari jake jinxx, cc, andy they all looked the same as before. I sat down without a word and looked at the wall trying not to let my mind go anywhere she will be ok she will be ok, I kept repeating to myself. 

“Did she forgive you,” Mari asked a slight smile spreading across her face. I felt myself stop I hadn't told them what happened. “she did then…then…the machine went blank…” my eyes started to water and I felt a pit in my throat. 

“And they pushed me out of the room” I put my head in my hands and tears started streaming down my face. “oh my god is she…” jakes voice cracked even he was about to cry. 

“No no she cant be they didn't say she was… she cant be” tears started to soak my face. Andy's eyes filled up and he turned away jinxx sat with a blank face, jake held Mari who was crying in his arms trying to hold back tears.

I stood up and walked back and forth. “I need some air” I said walking out side. I walked out, it was dark, I looked around the parking lot was almost full and people where walking in and out.

I walked to the corner of the street and sat on some grass I just couldn't handle staying in there any longer it was like the walls where caving in on me. I shook my head, trying to stop crying, I don't cry I hardly ever cry and hardly any girl has been the reason I cried I don't know how to handle this.

I cant loose her I wont be able to function ever agin if she's not with me, playing on stage agin would feel like tonight like something inside me is gone like I am hollow and I wouldn't be able to do it god I'm so in love with her I would give anything to keep her alive. 

“Please god please let her be ok” I said shaking my head looking down. “I thought you don't believe in god” I heard a deep voice say behind me. “I don't think I do but I could use a little hope right about now.”

I said turning to face andy. “ash she will be ok I promise we wont loose her she's going to be ok she has to be”  and with the last word he sat next to me as a comforting gesture. 

“Andy I would give anything to make sure she lives if she gets better and told me she wanted you not me I would back down without a word thats how much I love her.”

He looked me in the eyes his where as red and puffy as mine felt. “and thats why she chose you, you're a bette guy, you'd give anything for her you'd back down and not say another word, unlike me how selfish I was trying to get in between you two.”

“Man don’t be hard on yourself, she's a girl worth fighting for, the only girl I can honestly say I have been truly in love with,” I said looking away tears where building up agin. 

“Come on lets go back if theres news we want to know,” he said standing up holding out his hand to help me up. I took it looking into his eyes, I had almost forgotten how we where best friends and would have done anything for echother addy was right we need that back this whole being dicks to echother just isn't us.

We walked inside together. I saw Mari talking to a nurse jake standing with her. My heart dropped had addy…died. Mari turned to jake and cried into his shoulder. No no it cant be she cant be dead. 

I was screaming inside my head as loud as possible drawing out every noise around me staring at Mari crying. The nurse left and me and andy almost ran up to Mari.

“What happened?” andy said his voice cracking god he was thinking the same thing as me. Jake looked up at us and smiled then said “she is fine…” it was like I was finally able to breath and I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding.

“They have her stabilized the nurse said it was just that her oxygen was cut off but they gave her and oxygen tank and she should be fine” jakes voice was sounding relatively normal.

  

I swear my heart skipped a beat I hadn't ever wanted to hear anything more in my whole life, the fact that she was going to be ok, was like my whole life finally meant something, like I was finally worth something.