could this be real? (bvb fan fiction)

party life ruined something good

we all walked around for awhile ashley held my hand “come here.” he pulled me away from ben and Chris “what is it ash?” he smiled then said “addy i love you so much and i cant believe i finally have you for myself, but… i want you to know if you ever want to go back to andy its ok with me but i will fight for you” 

i wrapped my arms around the back of his neck and kissed him. his eyes shot wide open and he froze for a second then he wrapped his arms around me kissing me back. 

i pulled away “ash I'm yours andy hurt me and you where there for me not him, so for now on you don't have to worry I'm yours for good.” he smiled “god i love you addy.” i smirked “i know.” he smiled then kissed me agin. we pulled away. i grabbed his hand as we walked back to ben and Chris who had stopped at some merch. 

“ash i think its time for us to take her to the place.” ben said smiling. they smiled at echother then ash said “follow us addy, but remember to act like you didn't know.” i shook my head “your and idiot but your my idiot.” i kissed his cheek and they lead me behind the stage and down some streets to this night club. when we walked inside all of my friends where there. 

i smiled as mari ran up to me and hugged me “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” everyone yelled. “aww guys your the best.” i said as every one came up to hug me.  then i locked eyes with andy who was standing away from everyone drinking a beer with Danny. i sighed and walked over to him. 

“hey andy.” i said kindly. thats when Danny walked away and left us. andy turned around “hey addy happy birthday, i would hug you but your fucking boy friend probably wouldn't like it.” i took in a deep breath he sounded drunk he was slurring his words. 

“andy are you drunk?” i couldn't help but notice his eyes water up “yeah so what if i am.” i sighed “andy come here” i grabbed his wrist and pulled him away from everyone so no one could hear us or see us. 

he pulled away his hand and yelled “what do you want, you already broke my heart.” “you know what andy I'm sick of this you broke mine first you also broke my trust and that is worse anyways i never broke your trust!” i saw a tear run down his face. 

i pulled him closer and hugged him “andy i’m sorry i miss being in your life i want to be friends.” he pulled away then looked in my eyes, i searched his, “i don't want to be just friends i miss you i miss waking up by kissing you i miss falling asleep with you in my arms i want you back.” 

i didn't know what to say, or do for that matter, i opened my mouth to speak then before i could say anything andy leaned over and kissed me. for a second i forgot  

i wasn't his i could taste the beer on his breath. then i pushed him away “andy you cant do that!” i screamed at him. thats when i turned to see jake he had seen andy kiss me and i could tell he was going to run to ash. 

i pushed andy away and ran up to jake “please you saw what happened i didn't kiss him.” my mind was racing “addy you didn't push him away ether.” “i didn't know what to do i did push him away.” he shook his head “you kissed him back i saw and i cant let ashley get hurt over this.” 

“jake please not today let me tell him.” he shook his head “addy i wont tell him today but if you don't tell him i will” he walked away. i could feel my heart racing almost faster then my mind what am i going to do? why didn't i push him away? and why is life so complicated? 

 i turned back to andy “you cant do that ever agin. i don't want you i choose ashley and for good reason.” andy said “when i kissed you it sure didn't feel like you where choosing ashley.” 

i slaped him “andy you suck just don't talk to me!” i walked back to where everyone was. jake was with mari drinking a beer we made eye contact and i could tell he wanted me to tell ash. 

i put on a smiled then walked to ash and kissed his cheek. he gave me a weird look “where did you go?” i could feel my heart racing “no where just around.” i said trying to act calm. 

he smiled then kissed me. he knew something was up, i could tell. he handed me a drink then said “ok lets dance.” i smiled as he pulled me to the dance floor a lot of the guys where dancing. Danny’s girl friend and him where grinding. 

“they have the right idea” ash said smiling at me. i hit him slightly “they sure do.” he grabbed me from behind and pulled me closer to him, my back was pressed against his chest. he kissed my neck. making me smiled, as I grinded against him. he laughed in my ear then kissed me. i couldn't help but notice andy smiling at me trying to get my attention. i rolled my eyes at him then turned around to face ashley i knew andy was still looking so i grabbed his face snd pulled him closer kissing him. 

after awhile mari came up to me and said “you knew about it already didn't you?” i smiled then hugged her “ash sucks at keeping secrets.” she shoot him a look then said “well at least i get to have fun with you come on.” she pulled me away from ash to dance with her. 

we where laughing and dancing having a lot of fun when jake came up to us, and shot me a look. mari saw and said “what was that about?” i sighed “i cant lie to you, andy kissed me and i didn't push him away right as it happened, and jake saw it.” 

she shook her head at me, “well forget about it today is your day.” i smiled and hugged her. “I'm so happy today other then andy its been one of the best days ever.” 

she pulled me back up to the bar, ashley and jake where talking. and so was andy. my heart stopped where they talking about andy kissing me? “hey jake you should come dance with me.” mari said pulling him away trying to get him to shut up. as they left i gave andy a death stare and said “so what where you guys talking about?” 

ashley kissed me then said “you.” “oh yeah what did andy say?” i asked ash well not braking eye contact with andy. ashley looked at us both then said “whats going on with you two?” 

“nothing man.” andy said as he grabbed a drink and walked away. “ashley i cant lie to you…” he cut me off  “addy what did you do?” i took in a deep breath “andy kissed me i told him i wanted to be friends then he kissed me jake wanted me to…” he cut me off agin “wait you kissed andy and jake knew?” i shook my head 

“its not like that ash please let me explain.” he shook his head “addy I'm done.” then turned around and walked away. i hung my head did i just loose ashley? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!