could this be real? (bvb fan fiction)

playing on stage

“where do you think she could be?” i said trying not to let my mind over think. “lets see if she's with any one from the other bands on tour come on.” jinxx said leading us to the other tour busses. 

“hey do you know where addy is?” he asked ronnie as we got to the falling in reverse bus. “no i haven't seen her all day, is everything alright?” he asked looking at me. 

“yeah just if you see her tell her to o back to the bus right away.” jake said trying to speed things up. “ok will do good luck finding her.” ronnie said as we walked away. 

we talked to every band on tour no one had seen addy, chris was the last person to see her and he said she looked upset i would be to if andy had pulled that shit on me. 

“ok lets go to the last place chris saw her then spread out from there.” jinxx said as we walked. we got to the place chris had told us they where “she walked that way” he said pointing to the buses. 

“ok guys lets split up and meet back at the bus.” jinxx said as we all started walking around. i walked looking behind everything anywhere she could be i was looking hoping she was ok.

i dont remeber where i walked to next but i saw a tree with addy asleep on the ground next to it, my heart skipped beat thank god she was ok. i thought moving towards her. 

i got to her and saw she had bruises and cut all over there was some blood. tried to wake her up “addy?” i said loud shaking her. “addy this isn't funny wake up” i said trying not to freak out. 

“addy?” i said one last time. she didn't respond i got out my phone and dialed jinxx “i found her she was sitting at some tree but jinxx she's passed out and bloody blood all over she wont wake up i don't know what to do” 

i was so scared, my mind was racing. “ok calm down and call 911” i hung up with him then called 911 “whats your emergency?” some woman asked answering the phone “my girl friend isn't waking up and she looked beaten” i said trying my best to stay calm. 

“ok sir where are you?” i told her what was around us and she said “an ambulance is on their way now.” not to long after i herd the sirens followed by seeing the ambulance. 

some guys rushed over to me and put addy on a gurney. i got in the back with them they where saying things to echother that i didn't understand. we got to the hospital and they rushed her out i followed inside. 

“what happened?” a nurse asked me. i don't know i wasn't there when she passed  out we where all looking for her and i found her like this.” i said trying to hold back tears. 

“we need to run some tests sit in the waiting room” she said kindly noticeing i was on the verge on crying. “ash what happened?” i saw andy walk in the waiting room followed by the rest of the band and mari. 

“i dont know i found her like that” i said not even looking up to face him. “ash i know you want to stay but we have a show we need to go then we can come back.” jinxx said trying to sound kind 

“im not leaveing i cant.” i couldn't leave i needed to know she was ok plus how could i jump around on stage and goof off when i don't know whats happening. “look none of us want to do it, we all love her but we have to” jake insisted. 

“mari are you going to stay here?” i asked begging for her to stay “of course ill call the second i hear anything.” i nodded then, jake andy jinxx and i got in a cab to the venue. 

we all went side stage they had already started the sound check and the crowd was cheering bvb bvb, just like every other night but this time i wasn't excited or pumped up to be here the only place i wanted to be was with addy. 

“ok guys go on when every your ready” one of the sound guys said to us. “ok i know none of us want to be here but we need to do this like every other show we play for our fans.”  andy said sounding like he was about to cry. 

we all put on smiles then started walking on stage cc first then jake and jinxx i followed and andy came on after us. we played goodbye agony then andy said “hows everyone doing tonight?” 

the crowd cheered i was jumping up around trying my best to keep up a smile, jake and jinxx kept looking at me to make sure i could keep playing during songs. i looked around the crowd a lot of faces cheering for us. 

but i only wanted one person to be there and she's in the hospital. i could feel tears build up in my eyes, i turned to jake who shook his head then made his way over to me. 

“you ok?” he mouthed. i shook my head “yeah” i mouthed back taking in a deep breath and shaking my head putting on a smile. i throw picks at the crowd like i always did smiling. i winked at some girls just like i always did but this show i don't think i convinced anyone i was ok, not even myself.