could this be real? (bvb fan fiction)

i didn't need you

i walked out of the room down the hallway following ashley outside. “ash stop” i yelled after him, causing him to stop in his tracks. “what andy what could you possibly want you won ok, You get her back you won, happy now I lost the best thing that ever happened to me and you got her!” he was so angry, it was like something inside him snapped he wasn't himself.

“ashley she never once said she was leaving you, she opened up to me more about her dad ok and to be fair i took her away from him, not you it makes sense she would ask for me” 

i was trying my best to keep my voice steady and calm. “ANDY SHE ASKED FOR YOU NOT ME! in what world does that make sense? why wouldn’t she ask for me when she woke up why was she so cold hearted to me all i ever did was show her i care!”

“look ashley calm down she still loves you, she said nothing about you loosing her, if you walk away now when she needs you most then you will loose her for good.” 

“I don’t know how to calm down I can’t loose her she's all the good in the world. She's all I care about, it isn't fair that I could loose her just because you got to her first!”

I sighed “ashley go talk to her I'm not going to let her choose me I had my chance and I blew it big time I realize now that you are the better thing for her not me.” He shook his head. 

i have been best friends with ash for years no girl has ever done this to him before, no one could push him like she does.I just looked away “ashley you deserve her not me I fucked up and hurt her you haven't yet and you wont in the future.” 

He walked back to the door, the way he can mask his pain for her is amazing he always is the one right there for her always has been, I finally see that because I love her I want the best thing for her and its ashley I cant keep causing trouble in their life’s. He took a deep breath and walked back to her room. I followed behind him and stood in the door way.

ASHLEY’S POV:

I walked in her room trying to control my emotions right now I'm not important she is she's all that I care about I need her to be ok. She looked at me this time with emotion it wasn't a blank face.

She looked hurt, and betrayed. “addy look I need to apologize.” She cut me off “don’t you dare, I didn't talk to you I'm sorry i just i,” i cut her off “needed andy not me and i understand that but as long as it doesn't mean loosing you.” 

she shook her head slightly “ashley your not going to loose me i don't like anyone else, your the only one for me and this time i just needed someone i could face,” it was like my heart had stopped did she not trust me? is that why she wanted andy does she trust him and not me?

“addy you know I'm always here” “no ash of course i know that its just andy has already seen me like this, i know how he reacts to things, i don't like seeing you hurt, and i couldn't ask for mari because we all know she would have started to cry and i couldn't handle that right now” 

“addy, of course it hurts me seeing you like this in fact its killing me, because when your hurt i am to and i swear I'm never leaving you alone agin.” she smiled slightly, 

you could hardly tell she looked so beaten her face was cut up her lip swollen, her arm broken and a hurt leg, with bruises everywhere, it was hard for me not to just go off i mean how could someone hurt a girl like her someone so flawless and caring, every inch of her seemed beaten and thats all i could see

i mean with what mari talked about earlier...i cut that thought off my self i cant handle going there, i know i would explode then. 

she does not deserve all the pain everyone throws her way if i was her i would have broken so long ago and the fact that this doesn't seem to be the first time she's been sent to the hospital makes it even worse.

she seems so used to it no one should be used to being beaten and abused i need to protect her, i will protect her if it takes never leaving her side then so be it I'm stuck to her like glue.

“ash i love you I'm sorry i worried you in the first place” she said ripping me from my thoughts. “never apoligize to me agin you did nothing I'm going to protect you from now on i promise no one will hurt you ever agin”