Inner Monologues

Strong

In the past I was this strong girl, no one could have broken me.

I was never crying, even though the pain was awful.

And now, look at me, I'm crying while I'm talking about the past, about the things that have changed me and the pain who formed me for who I am now.

I cry, when someone confronts me with things that I do wrong in my job or what I have planned for my future.

But I have no idea what I'm doing right now with my life and I also have absolutely no idea what I want.

That's me, I'm crying over things that aren't even necessary to cry over and I have no idea how I'm coming out of this mess.

I need somebody to hold me and say; at the end everything will be okay and in the near future you will know what you want.

Just don't push yourself through things that you don't want to and don't stress yourself too much for things you need to decide in the near future.

Just start living and don't think about tomorrow.

Things will always get better at the end of the day, just breathe and live in the right here, right now and not in the future.

Don't push yourself in things too much, too fast, wait and you will see where life will take you.