Boyf riends Oneshots (Requests are open)

homework

not really boyf riends since michael isn't in this one

this is kind of a vent chapter :/
tw: mentions of suicide but it's very light

third persons pov
jeremy was struggling with his homework, not because he didn't understand it, which he still didn't, but he couldn't will himself to work.

most people would think he was lazy, not doing assignment and then finishing them at the last minute, but jeremy actually cared about his grade, even though it didn't show.

assignment after assignment. essay after essay and all for what? to get a shitty job, work for 40 years and then die?

that didn't seem like a good life to jeremy. which is why he was having a breakdown over it at his desk.

why do assignments if nothing even mattered in the end. he didn't even know if he was going to live long enough for college, considering where his mental health lay, so why care?

jeremy felt like he was always being ranked. whatever grade he got, it would cost him his grade, whether bringing it up, or dragging it down. usually it was the latter.

and no one understood, or at least they didn't care. his dad didn't understand why his grades were slipping when he knew jeremy was smart enough. his tutors never understood how jeremy knew all the answers but still had such a horrible grade. jeremy just couldn't put it onto paper. michael never understood why jeremy got so upset when he got a bad grade. michael always said, "it's just a number."

but to jeremy it was way more than that, it was his future and nothing at all at the same time. as soon as he saw a letter lower than B, he went into panic mode.

sure C+ was a passing grade, but jeremy still felt awful not being able to achieve more than that. he knew all the answers, but he didn't have the mental energy to do his assignments.

jeremy currently sat at his desk, looking over the same question on the paper about 50 times until he started crying. he wanted to crumple up the paper and burn it, but he kept trying.

trying to solve the problem on a separate piece of paper, but his fingers couldn't grip the pencil correctly. he tried and tried to solve the equation, so close to the answer until he just gave up.

'i'll do it later.' he thought to himself, knowing he was lying to himself. it would probably never get turned in, in the end. and his grade would drop.

it was a never ending cycle.

jeremy laid on his bed, curling up and facing the wall. he grabbed his inky plushie that michael got for him in 6th grade. he smiled sadly, wishing michael was here. hoping that michael would burst in his room, hugging jeremy tightly and helping him through his homework.

but they're not dating, that would never happen, even though michael would still do that even if they're not dating. michael would do anything for jeremy, but jeremy didn't want to be a bother. he didn't want to call michael at 9:46 pm and ask if he can get help on his homework.

he didn't wanna bother michael, so he didn't.

he ended up crying himself to sleep over his unfinished homework.

might make a part 2 because i can't keep my boy sad for long