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Random Angsty Headcanons (TW)

TW: talk of emotional toils/depressive episodes, trauma, abuse, body dysmorphia and image issues, trauma invalidation

• Gon is one hundred percent the kind of person who lets his emotions well up and only lets it out once every couple months. And when he does, it's a whole day long thing. It's always one small thing that sets him off too, like breaking something by accident or tearing his jacket a little. He's emotional, he's fragile, he feels weak and nauseous, he doesn't eat, he can hardly get out of bed. He just sits on his bed and cries and screams with frustration. He doesn't wanna see anyone, do anything, he just wants to sit in the quiet and be miserable all alone. And the few days after it he feels completely dumb and detached from everything and everyone and refuses to reach out or talk to anyone. It takes him a few days or a week to recover fully (I do this too and if you do this, I'm really sorry you have to go through this I love you)

• Illumi grieves the person he could have been and the relationships he could have had if he wasn't so traumatized, abused, and conditioned to be cold and unfeeling

• Kite is (originally) hella tall, like 6'5"+. Coming from someone who's 6'1" Ish, your body gets hella hard to control and those who can work well in their tall ass lanky bodies, are fucking omnipotent gods and you should be scared of them. And it's obvious kite has pretty good control of his body. So going from being 6'5"Ish to being shorter than fucking Gon???? And not to mention a whole other gender??? Jesus fucking Christ the body dysmorphia and self-image issues he has to deal with. I know I've already touched on this but God

• Leorio takes care of others so often and for so long (patients, friends, and otherwise), he has genuinely forgotten that he needs to take care of himself too. He just needs someone who will make him their number one, who will put his well-being first

• The moment Kurapika fulfills his revenge and kills the entire troupe, he's going to finally realize that it didn't help and it only hurt him. His drive for revenge ripped him away from making other meaningful relationships, it killed people, it's killing himself, and all for nothing. He won't feel fulfilled or better, he'll just feel empty and terrible about himself and won't have anything to show for it

• The older Killua gets, the more he's gonna realize how fucked up his family's abuse was. He's gonna start piecing things together and finding the roots of his issues/character flaws in his abused past and shitty family. He jokes about it now but when he has the mental maturity and time away from them to process all that shit, it's gonna hurt (also not saying he's not mature but mature in like emotional maturity? Idk)

• Leorio would 100% be the type of person to wish something worse or more traumatic happened to him so he feels like he has a genuine reason to complain or be upset like the other three (also, this isn't like something a shitty person does, it's a way of seeking trauma validation through ones self and others, and it's doesn't make the person going through this ungrateful or pitiful, it's a psychological fact that people do this because they feel their trauma is invalidated and they're seeking ways to feel validated in their shitty feelings. So if you do this, don't feel bad, just know your trauma is validly traumatizing, no matter how big or small you conceive it as)

A/N: hi sorry as you can tell, I'm big on validating people's trauma (and people in general) and stressing the fact that we shouldn't compare traumas and ask who's more traumatized. Trauma is trauma and it's fucking traumatic no matter what- it doesn't matter if you conceive it to be minor or major, it's trauma. Its upsetting and hurtful and so emotionally, physically, and mentally draining and exhausting no matter the case. Please don't ever tell people (or yourself) to "just get over it" or "that's not that bad". Let people feel and go through what they need to. It's their healing process, not yours. And vice versa, let yourself go through the motions too and be kind to yourself while you're healing. It's so important <3
That's it- that's all I wanted to say
Have a good day