Freak Accident | SooGyu

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-Beomgyus POV-

"You're going to be sick" Soobin leans against the bridge railing. His bored eyes watch me open the can of beer.

"Why would I? I drink way more than this" I chug the can. Immediately after I feel nauseous and sick.

"Because it's never a good idea to mix white with brown" my body feels like it's been poisoned and I lean over the railing and violently throw up all the vodka and jellow shots I took earlier. I grab at the railing to hold myself up and forgot I was holding my phone so I dropped it and it fell and shattered onto the highway, multiple semis running it over.

"Fuck"

Soobin took me home after that and then I blacked out and woke up in my bed the next day. I threw up in my sleep and most of it was on me but some was on my bed sheets so I had to put those to wash- I did it after I showered though.

I was too traumatized from the night before to drink right now. I'm currently just laying on the floor of my bedroom flipping through a beauty magazine.

Tch.. I'm way prettier than any of these celebrities. I toss the magazine off to the side and stand up, turning to the full length mirror on my door.

I stand in front of my reflection admiring myself. My rough slender fingers graze my cheeks. Even the bruise on my cheek bone is flattering to me.

My god complex is suddenly gone and I grab at my cheeks as hard as I can. For a second I think about shredding my face into little tiny pieces. I think about smashing my mirror, longing to see shards of bloody glass.

But I don't do any of that. I take deep breathes and drop my hands, deciding that I've had enough alone time than healthy.

I would call Soobin and ask where he is but my phone no longer exists and I haven't had any motivation to buy another one, I figure my best bet is to guess where I could find him.

Lets see today is Sunday which means he's probably at the library studying with Huening Kai.

That doesn't matter all that much in this moment because it's either share the same space as Huening Kai or be alone with myself.

It was an easy choice; I hate myself more than I hate Kai.

I set off on foot and start walking down my sidewalk. I walk with my eyes straight, not paying attention to my surroundings because frankly; the world doesn't deserve my attention.

Fuck, I really am horrible.

I start to imagine what kind of person Kai is. He seems kind and sensible. Probably came from a two parent household who supported him in everything and anything he does. They probably support his expenses and all he has to do is work some part time job at some picture perfect cafe- it would explain his outfit style. Shit, he probably even has an older sibling who he has a weird complex for and idolizes.

My family wasn't like that. My parents hate each other and are only married because they don't want to go through the trouble of a divorce. My brother is always in his own world, I see him maybe a couple times a month. Even less my parents.

I never did any sports or clubs, but even if I did I wouldn't have the support of one family member.

I couldn't really blame them though.

"You look like you're going to cry" thank god I'm pulled out of my mind.

Jay stands in front of me. Same angry gaze. His right hand is cozy inside his pocket and his outfit is competed with a toothpick between his teeth.