Freak Accident | SooGyu

26

*Beomgyus pov*

-Flash back-

Why did I act that way? Maybe it's because I was drunk, or maybe I'm just seriously fucked in the head.

I open the door, and unsurprisingly, Huening Kai is standing there.

When I see him my stomach drops and I want to cry. It's quite funny actually; him and I wear the same expression.

To be completely honest, Soobin terrifies me.

When we first met he wanted nothing to do with me, which I found amusing so I decided to toy around a bit, but then at some point I had become used to having his scowl around.

I know he gets mad and gets really psycho. That night at the bar I was really scared when he smashed that window open, but at the same time it made my blood rush.

How obsessed does he have to be to go to these lengths? What are the limits to his devotion? What are mine?

He's obsessed and has anger issues, but he cares about me. Even when I make him jealous and make him see red, he cares about me. When I'm shitfaced and can't even stand, he cares about me.

I'm downstairs now, leaning over the island in the kitchen. I came in here after seeing Soobin walk out with Huening Kai.

I crave attention, but don't want anyone to get too close, so why did I decide to let that colorless jerk in?

My thoughts go back to Huening Kai.

Every time I think of him I feel inferior. I get a knot in my throat and it feels like there's barb wire wrapping around my chest.

I hate him. I hate his rosy cheeks and pretty heart. I hate how he's a better match for Soobin than me.

Fuck, I'm thinking too much and now I'm gonna cry. Nope, I'm not gonna cry! I didn't come here to cry.

I grab the bottle setting on the table and grab an empty solo cup. My hands begin to shake as I begin pouring the drink and give up on it not even half full. I toss the cup off to the side and drink straight from the bottle. All I can smell is liquor.

"Beomgyu? What are you doing here?" Yeonjun smiles walking towards me. I can tell by his eyes that he's a little drunk too.

"I'm drinking" I answer honestly and continue to down the bottle. Followed by some random drink setting in the island. I reach for another one and that's when I'm stopped.

"Okay maybe you shouldn't drink anymore" Yeonjun grabs my wrist and takes the drink from me, and then starts leading me out of the kitchen.

We don't get far before I use my free hand to pull him into me, squeezing me up against the island.

"You look sooo hot tonight" I smile

I don't even remember what happened after that but I woke up with hickeys. I was doing pretty good on hiding it but I fucked up and now everyone knows.

"Why do you have hickeys?" Soobin questions me, his voice sending chills through my body.

"I-I don't" I know there's no use in lying, I mean, the hickeys were obvious as fuck, but I still lie on impulse.

"Let me fucking see your neck then" Soobin tries to pull down my turtle neck but I jerk back.

"N-No I'm cold"

"No, you're a fucking liar that's what you are!"

"Soobin calm down!" Huening Kai speaks up, and just like that, Soobin listens. He sits back in his seat, jaw clenched and body shaking, but he is trying to calm himself, that much is obvious.