SOULWAVE

intermezzo

i write it down while listening Location Unknown by HONNE, BEKA. i didn't know it supposed to be painful. haha.

i know yall won't to read it and it's fine, that's the point anw, bc it's gotta sounds cheesy or cringey or weird or whatever you named it. sorry if my broken english could ruined it.

i just thought about reconcile.

it feels trivial but not everyone can and is ready to try to make peace. including me.

whether it's making peace with the past.

make peace with the circumstances that forced you and me to mantain the silently.

make peace with people who indirectly make us being silence each other.

make peace with everything that made us fail to enter the same school again.

imagine if i lived carrying revenge everywhere. i won't feel settle every a second. but yeah, like this, i living slowly letting go of that grudge. peaceful affairs, maybe later.

but the fact is... i still want you to be there with me despite it's impossible thing that i ever imagine.

i still carry around your figure when there's someone who looks like you as personality.

i still feel my chest heaves every time i meet someone whose name is the same as yours.

i was still playing around on your chat room when the date is come and was like an idiot because i couldn't do anything on your birthday, except beg to God to give you everything good.

i still use your name as my roles to create characters in my stories. that's the implicit part that you don't know, and i hope you never know till whenever.

last one... i still put your date into the lock screen on my phone.

it's always been you.

only you that i want to remember.

and never forgotten.