My sisters, bad boy

Chapter 34

I'm in a restless sleep. I can't open my eyes. it's like their glued shut. I don't see black though. I see my memory's. Paul. Jacob. Prim.

Paul, with his shaggy blonde hair that I always messed up. Paul, with his amazing smile that could light up a room. Paul, my bestist friend in the world.

Prim, with her beautiful blonde hair. prim, with her perky attitude. prim, with her big glasses she always wears that makes we personality stick out more.

Jacob..... with everything a girl could ever want. Jacob, with his eyes. his hair. his face. him. Jacob, my sisters, bad boy. but he's mine. I'm in love with him so much. I would do anything for him.

Every memory I could ever have of the best times Ive had with them come into mind. the pool. The movie. The dinner. The party. Everything. Ands it's all within under thirty minutes.

They say that your life can flash before your eyes. I'm guessing this is what that is. that THIS is why I can't open my eyes. where I feel alone. and I'm scared. I can feel my emotions like a normal person. but I don't feel normal.

I feel alive.

I feel energized. Relived. I don't think I've really ever felt this way before. yet, I want it To go away. I want to feel the way I feel with Jacob. alive. loved. wanted. worth something. myself. truthful. beautiful. Strong. Different.

I want to wake up. I want to be alive. Am I dead? Is this why I can't open my eyes? is this why I'm feeling this way? I have so many questions roaming through my brain. and so many of them I think I know.

Why can't I just wake up and be okay? why can't my LIFE just be okay? why can't everything just be normal? Why can't I be normal? and many more endless questions that I have.

But the one that I want the biggest answer is:

Why aren't my parents here?

Why are THEY a screwup?! Why are THEY assholes that don't do anything with their life?! Why are THEY not here and taking care of me?! Why the fuck do they have to be addicts and murderers?!

I want to wake up.

Hey guys! I know this ones a short one, but don't worry, I'll have one for you soon. I'm currently working on two books right now so if I don't update in a few days you know why.

I just wanted to make sure you all knew that and didn't get mad. And I also wanted to thank you all for being such great readers and reading my book! I love you all and I hope you enjoyed the book! again, I'm sorry with all the spelling errors.