From Order into chaos (Male reader x Akali)

Chapter 19

I sent the message with a clear mind, I have spent most of today tossing and turning. Just trying to wrap my head around what I am supposed to do. Maybe I am not as strong as I thought I was, maybe I really am just sub-par.

That has to change. All of it needs to change, and unfortunately, change like that has to start with me. She is right... I don't know why I do the things I do, instinct probably... but it's time to do right by her.

Sending another one with a sigh, "I am going to end it with them once and for all."

I toss the phone in the bag on my bed. Packing the last few possessions. I throw the bag over my shoulder and leave this place. I drop the key on the counter - there isn't any need to pay considering that I was ahead on my payments... I guess they can just keep the rest as my tip for a pretty shit bed.

Good riddance.

My heart still aches, the pain just won't go away and I guess it will not until I do something right. I hope she understands.

Stepping out of the front door, the cold air striking my skin. Rubbing the tense muscles in my neck I fix my coat as I start heading to the nearest bus stop. It will probably take a few days of travel to there and back so-

My thoughts are cut short as I hear someone's engine cry through the streets, getting dangerously closer to me. I furrow my brow as I see a bike turning the corner into my street. It stops next to me, the person on it tilts their head as if inspecting me.

Pulling of the helmet, she places it on the bike as she almost tackles me to the ground.

"Akali? What why..."

"Why?" she whispers into me, "Why do you do these things? I am just so relieved you aren't gone already... that you already skipped town and decided to everyone alone," she rubs her face against my chest, her tear-filled eyes looking up at me, "Why? Please just... why do you keep doing this to me? Why would you go back to them?!"

I avert my gaze, "I didn't want to bring you with me, because then I did what they asked-"

"Cut the bullshit, (Y/N)! Why go back? After everything you said?"

I quickly return my gaze, "I'm not going back to join them. I wanted to go there to leave and erase myself completely. They expect me to come back and I only wish to disappoint them."

She sighs, resting her head against my chest, "You... really need to stop this. My heart won't take this anymore," she pulls away, grabbing my hand she pulls me with her.

"Where are we..."

"Just... come with me. Please," I nod silently, climbing on the back of the bike she sits still for a while before driving back to her place.

The entire trip was spent in painful silence. Even at her place, there was only silence. Leading me through the garage back into the building she didn't even greet the three of them as we passed them... I didn't either. Though their gazes were not pleasant ones, it was gnawing at me. Piercing my entire being.

The lights to the room switch on, I notice that the bed was messy... she must have been in bed when she got the message.

Tugging me at my hand she sits me down at the edge of the bed, "I can't promise any tears from my part...but we seriously need to talk. Before you end up being the death of me," she gives a weak chuckle.

I avert my gaze from her, I feel her soft touch against my face, pulling me to face her, "Please... don't look away from me, I am here for you and these things eating at you needs to stop."

I nod, "I didn't want this for any of us, I wanted to do something about my anger in a way where it didn't affect you anymore. I didn't want to hurt you-"