*** Akali POV ***
Crashing down on one of the couches I give out a loud sigh. What an extremely busy day. At least we are done - this morning's confrontation didn't help keep my mind from going crazy with thoughts.
"Where is he?" Evelynn asks me as she walks into the room.
"His name is (Y/N) and I drove him home and came back just a few minutes ago."
"So are you two in love now or are you still confused?"
I snort, "Yeah I am fine now. Thanks for this morning."
She lifts her shoulders, "It was all unplanned and it just happened you walked in on us talking. So I asked what you wanted you to know and that should be enough right?"
I then nod, "What do you think?"
She drops down on one of the couches, "That maybe was a little too hard on him. Though this way he will think a bit more about what he will do next. Is that what you wanted to hear?"
I shake my head, "I don't know what I wanted to hear."
She hums as she thinks about it, "I can say this much. Let us say he has been treated this way for most of his life - he might find it hard to express any other emotion properly. He might constantly feel like he will never be enough."
"They were very good at making that perfectly clear back at home..."
"You can't teach people these things. My advice is to just let it happen naturally - thinking too much about it can just ruin the experience completely. The mind is a terrible place."
"What if the worst comes to pass?"
"That depends what you consider to be the worst thing for this situation."
I narrow my eyes, "I don't think I understand what you are trying to say."
"In general the worst thing to happen is that this all goes unresolved and neither of you will ever be able to forgive each other. He takes his leave and life goes on as if you never spoke to each other after you left."
"For him, the worst thing is clinging to the only thing he knows and because of that, he can possibly ruin the only 'happy memory' that he could have had. He will blame himself and will never be able to move past that."
"And for me?" I ask.
"Do you really want to know?" she warns me.
I nod, "Honestly... it might already be too late. Either you know it or you haven't realized it yourself," she averts her gaze, "If you start to catch feelings at the wrong time."
"I won't-"
"Then there is nothing to worry about right?" she returns her gaze to me, "If two people hated each other the chances of either of them falling in love is low. The chances of them becoming friends are just as low - yet here the two of you are. The problem is not falling in love but the fact that if you pursue it when there is still blood in the water that the worst will come to pass."
I rub my brow, "Do you think..."
"The question is if you think you did, I can't give you all the answers now can I?"
I crack a smile, "Yeah. So you say that the best thing to is to let everything come naturally?"
"In a sense yes. But do pay attention to your own needs and desires," she smiles at me, "We should all be a little more selfish."
Who am I trying to fool? Because honestly, it is not working.
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