*** Akali POV ***
It was hard to watch, to let them all just say what they wanted to say without taking anything into consideration. It was painful - Shen came just in time before I was going to blow my top off but in the end, we were separated.
I can't help but think why? Why would he want to talk to him? About me? I don't know. There is something else that doesn't rub right with me as well. One of those Elders called him an outsider, which means what?
As far as I know, he was born into the Kinkou Order. Were his parents' outsiders? I never met them, so I don't even know the answer to that myself. Here I am wondering and worrying about you yet again.
We have been sitting in each other's presence for a while, at least someone is happy to see me, for now, "Mother..."
She lifts her head instantly, "Yes, dear," wearing a soft expression.
"Why did they call (Y/N) an outsider?"
She stares at me blankly, "Because he is one. Not many people know why he is in the Order in the first place but the Eldest of the Order never wished for the child to be here in the first place."
"You know... I know you do."
She nods, "I do. Do you really care so much about that boy?" she rests her head on her fist, "I don't remember a day you weren't complaining about him."
"I care about him a lot," I hold my stare, "I wish I did back then, I wish that we'd treat him like one of us. I wish that we didn't kick him to the side like a sick little dog."
She nods, "I know, dear," she breathes a sigh, "What can you do? He would have had a better chance of joining the Shadow Order. We tried but his parents begged for us to take him in," she rubs the back of her neck, "And so we did. At the time there few that really cared but this seething hatred originated around the time you disappeared."
"Bullshit, he was treated like shit long before then."
"I know, I meant to say that it progressively got worse," she tries to smile but lowers her head, "I am not exempted from these actions. If anything I was probably the one that-"
"I know," she nods in understanding, "But he was an outsider right? We don't care about the lives that we destroy."
"Akali..."
"Save it," I sigh, "Nothing you say will make me feel any better about what happened - nothing can be done to make up for all that time spent hating each other," I then lift my gaze towards the door, "I wish that a simple sorry was enough but that is up to him to decide."
She smiles at me, "You love him."
"I do."
"I have my own regrets," she rubs the corner of her eye, "I am not blind to what I have done and I know you don't want reasons. What matters is that it was done in the first place. I only wished that I didn't push you so hard to become the best you could be, that you had that freedom you ended up chasing."
I finally smile at her, "A bit too late for that."
"I am aware," she laughs but then shakes her head, "I have my own issues but I won't stand in your way. I know he is a good kid-"
"Then you should have treated him like it," I bite, "Please... just stop. Talking about it just makes me angrier."
"I am sorry," she smiles weakly, "For everything. This is still your home, if you ever wish to return or visit know that you will always be welcome here."
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From Order into chaos (Male reader x Akali)
Fanfiction(The name is subject to change. My creative energies have depleted as that is what I came up with. Don't @ me.) As the Fist of Shadow, there is something you had to deal with for years. Ever since Akali left all that you have received is endless amo...
