From Order into chaos (Male reader x Akali)

Chapter 8

"You understand everything so far?"

I furrow my brow, "I guess? It isn't rocket science but I guess I will just have to leave the legalities to the people that know what they are doing."

He chuckles, "No worries man. This isn't police training or anything like that. It just helps to know you have someone covering your back."

I then nod to myself, "Then I guess I am all set when it comes down to it."

"You have your paperwork finished and signed? I will be going down to the court and then you will be registered with us."

I nod as I place it on his table, "This should be enough right?"

He quickly looks through the papers, "Yeah you are good. You already have my number, the rest of us are looking forward to your first day working for us. Just send me your schedule later today so that we can make sure we don't send you the dogs on the first day."

I chuckle, "I appreciate it, Alex."

"No worries. Your equipment will be staying with ours seeing as our company provides it. Feel free to buy your own but do run it by us to make sure you don't buy something that could be considered a felony."

I nod, "Alright. Will do," I then shake his hand. Turning to take my leave, I consider the option of getting a vehicle because as of now I have been walking everywhere.

I then groan - it has been such a painful experience. I want to go back to the Order. I didn't have to do paperwork on paperwork. Didn't need to know how the law works or that I need insurance on my own life.

I don't even own a microwave and I am already being called to insure my car. The administration from the past few days alone has already stripped me from all my cash - even my eating habits are expensive.

I then pull my phone out of my pocket, hovering over Akali's name I hesitate. Taking a moment to think of what to send her.

Why I am I making this so weird?

I am all good for this weeknd. Just let me know when and where.

I send it without any further thought, not getting enough time to process it I already got a reply. I furrow my brow as I pull it out to see what she said.

Can you come in tmrw? I know it is a day earlier but rather start Friday than saturday. Mght be done before Sunday.

I guess? I don't really have plans anyway considering my contract is only active next week.

Sure

She responds then just as quickly.

Appreciate it!! :)

Do I feel guilty? No. I don't even have to try and persuade myself. The idea was to become her friend anyway and try to convince her to at least talk to them back at the Order. If all goes well... hell even if it goes wrong they will never see me again.

I want to stop being held to the ground by them, I want to be allowed to be in the sun without them taking my place.

Why am I even doing this? My final fuck you towards the Kinkou Order? Oh right... so that they could stop comparing me to her. So that I can exist without having to conform to their expectations.

I could just stop right now. Save myself the hassle.

But I did promise Shen.

As much as he favours Akali it is the least I could do for him as a friend. Besides I should take the high road but honestly... I'd rather just do this.

I rub my brow as I sigh - who am I kidding? Not myself. Not even for a second. If I could walk away I would have done it a long time ago. How could I throw away everything I am? 

A sneer spreads across my face - even though I was not allowed to live. Even though everything I did was spat on as if it was nothing. My achievements were nothing. 

But what do you see Akali? The same kid that never seemed to get out of that shadow? Or is there a chance that you don't see a shadow but a person trying desperately not to be smothered by the expectations of others?

I want to entertain that thought-

- that with our friendship I can prove it to myself - 

- and prove to myself that I am right where I ought to be.

Do I feel guilty? 

I hope you can forgive me.