Help Me

Chapter 7

Namjoon's POV
I picked Y/n up bridal style and carried her to my room. She was shaking and tears wouldn't stop flowing down her cheeks. Yoongi hyung had put a cup of water on my nightstand.

I propped up against the headboard while holding Y/n. I was gently stroking her hair and shushing her. Soon she stopped crying, but was still shaking pretty bad. I handed her the water as she said, "thank you" in a quiet voice. I put the cup back when she finished drinking. She just curled up closer to me.

"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry" she kept repeating it until I stoped her.

"It's okay. Everyone deals with stuff. I'm here and you're safe. Okay?"

She only nodded as her eyelids got heavy. I softly rolled her onto the bed, her head still on my chest. I tried to get up when I though that she was asleep. She held me tighter and said,

"Please don't go" her voice was quiet and cracking. I hugged her tight and stayed.

20 minutes later Yoongi walked in.
"The guys are asleep, and apparently so is Y/n. If you want to take her home, the coast is clear."

I woke Y/n up and told her that we could go to her place. She tiredly nodded as I helped her home.

Y/n POV:
I made it inside of my apartment and turned to Namjoon. "I'm sorry about tonight. Thank you again."

⚠️ This could be triggering. Skip to the next chapter if you feel uncomfortable!⚠️

Before he could say anything, I closed the door. I went to my room and showered. When I put on my pajamas, I notice something on my nightstand. It was a blade. I picked it up and drug it across my thighs. It was almost a month since the last time I cut, but I felt like my heart was breaking and I couldn't even cry. I cleaned my legs and bandaged them so I wouldn't get blood on my bed. I called my boss to let him know that I was gonna skip work. He was fine with it. I was already working overtime. I hugged Koya and went to sleep.

(Next Morning)
I was curled up in bed when I heard a knock on my door. I stood up and opened my door.
"Joon!" I said shocked.

"Hey. I thought you might like some company today."

"Yeah. I'd like that. Please, come in."

We walked to the living room and sat on my couch. I turned on the tv and we started Hwarang. I was still tired so I ended up dozing off.

Namjoon's POV:
I was curled up with Y/n on her couch. She turned on a movie and fell asleep. I looked down at her. That's when I noticed her legs. She had bandages all over her thighs. I quietly called Yoongi hyung.

"What?"

I chuckled at his morning voice. "Morning to you too" I whispered

"Why are you whispering?"

"I'm spending time with Y/n. We were watching a movie and she fell asleep."

"So you're calling me to cure your boredom?"

"No. Actually i have a question. There are bandages all over Y/n's thighs. I don't want to assume anything, but..."

"You think she's hurting herself?"

"Yeah"

"I wouldn't be surprised Joon. You and I both saw her last night. She definitely has anxiety and PTSD. I guess she was overthinking about the night and got too overwhelmed. I'm still at your place. I could pop over quietly and see."

"I don't think she will wake up. It was rough last night. The door is unlocked, come on over."

Within 2 minutes Yoongi was in Y/n's apartment.

"We're over here" I whisper yell to my hyung
"I would have called someone else, but-"

"Yeah yeah. I know. I've been through this. You don't have to beat around the bush"

He came over a gently took the wrappings off of her. Yoongi sighed and put them back on.
"You were right. I'm sorry man"

"How do I help her"

"You can't help everyone Joon"

"She's not everyone" I say softly as I hold her closer to me.

"She probably has medications for depression and from what I saw, she's done this before. She has a lot of scars. We don't want to bombard her with questions, so how about we go swimming. She would have to wear a bathing suit which could help you "accidentally see" them."

"Yeah. That's a good idea. I'll ask her when she wakes up"

Yoongi nodded as he quietly walked back to my apartment. I hope I can help her. She means everything to me.