as we fall

toxic

maybe if my lips were a little fuller
or my eyes a little darker
or my hair a little longer

maybe then you would fall.

maybe if my skin was clearer
or if my nose was smaller
or my tummy flatter

maybe then you would fall.

let's be honest;
maybe if i was her and she was me

maybe THEN you would fall.

i need something to punch
to yell at
something to blame

for our toxic relationship.

it's really just a distraction, though.

we all know that in the end,
i'm the poison here.

and in the end,
i will wind up being the one to ruin us,
to push you away.

i'm the poison.

so no,
even if my hair was longer or my lips fuller

it would still never work.

maybe
just maybe

if i could let go of you
and set you free

then we would have a shot

but i
CAN'T LET YOU GO.

i just
don't
want
to
be
alone.