as we fall

cocaine party

the whispers won't leave me alone,
which hurts more than what you told me
to begin with.

i don't want to be a delinquent fuck-up
shipped off to rehab

with nothing left to my name other
than some white paper and black pen

i wish i had it in me to be normal

but in this situation, you really gave me
no say in the matter.

your cherry chapstick told me what to do,
and i, just an innocent bystander,
am forced to endure the red torment
forced under my eyelashes
staining my brain.

there are words stuck in the corners of my eyes,

but for some reason they only come out as tears.

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for TheUJelly_ because The Girl He Left Behind is on my top 5 favorite stories