as we fall

control

i can't get you
out of my
mind

because in a lapse of
judgement
i gave you the key
and you forgot to
lock the door.

i can't get you out of my life

because in a lapse of
judgement
i befriended you
and attached your hip
to mine.

i can't escape you

because in a moment of clarity
seeing that i was walking out the door
you handcuffed me to a
chair
and sat down beside me.

and you wonder
why
i
feel
so
damn
trapped.

i can't stop thinking about you
because the moment
the warmth of your hand
left
mine

i missed it.

i can't control you, either,
open your heart and lock myself in,
because you are practiced
in the art of shutting people
out.

i was, too,
until you struck down every
last
barrier

and i forgot which was up
and what was down.

you entered my life like a tornado
destroying everything in your path
and wreaking havoc
on my
thoughts.

and then you latched on like a leech
and refused to let go

slowly sucking out all the good
all the life

and replacing it with
dark
angry
jealous images
and death.

i can no longer choose
what i want.

it's always what you want.

tell me what to do, and i'll
do it

without a blink.
no questions asked.

it's scary, the amount of control
you have over me.

but would i change it, if
i
could?

of course not-
then i would lose
us.

....................
dedicated to SomethingInBloom
for making me laugh

when no one else could.

Go give her some love <3