as we fall

i'm sorry

siphon away all the happy memories;
leave only the broken ones behind;
too dangerous to touch, leave them
to decompose
into the rain-stained grass

forget all the times
where we could've been saved
where we could've been real
where we could've had a future

it's better this way.
one day you'll understand.
try to forget me,
find someone who will give you
what i never could.

i'm crying now
as i write this pathetic
letter

and my tears are dripping
and the ink is bleeding
and the paper is crumpling

i'm sorry.

and i hate the sun
and i miss the rain
because on a day like today
with loss and pain
the sun should not be
shining

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hugs and kisses to @RockNRollCanNeverDie for the sweet messages you sent me. thank you.

so i'm back! kinda. updates will probably be pretty sporadic for a while, at least until school is out. i'm sorry, it's just a little too much right now. i apologize if any of my writing comes out terribly. i am so scatterbrained right now.
k bye. <3