babble with andie

25 // maybe

{date: 9.26.2021}

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maybe i was rlly meant to be alone. idek like what i deserve anymore?? idk lol. my seasonal depression is also like kinda starting too.

i just dont know whats going on in my brain lol.

idk, what if i just rlly dont deserve to be happy ?? what then ? what do i do now, you know ?

i guess im just kinda sad idk. maybe ive said that im gonna die alone too much that i really just manifested it & just ruin all of my relationships & just truly be alone forever.

maybe its just easier to be alone. maybe middle school me was right. people are too much hard work, i rlly should just be alone :/

maybe i just dont deserve people around me, maybe my ex was right.

maybe i dont deserve love as mush as other people.

maybe i should just revert to bottling everything up & being alone.

what if i have too much hate in my heart, or what if i dont just dont have a heart at all ??

-a

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