{date: 7.26.2018}
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alright, so i dont even know where to start w this. so imma just ramble. lol like i always do.
but i want a change ?? like last night i was desperately wanting some big change. like i want to move somewhere. i dont know where. but like somewhere.
i want a new start.
clean.
somewhere where no one knows who the fuck i am.
ugh idk.
i feel like im sick of this life. and idk what i even mean by that.
i just want to forget about my life here and move someplace else.
i wanna see new places and meet new people and,,,,,just get out.
i feel like im trapped sometimes ??? like theres never anything new in my life and i feel like i just need some change ?
i dont even know what im talking about.
but then again, when do i know what im talking about.
i get so distracted w everything. like where am i even going w this one.
im trying really hard to just feel like i belong ????
see, the thing is, that ive never felt like ive TRULY belonged somewhere. ive always felt misplaced somehow.
and i feel like people will just like pick other people over me ?
idk.
i feel like ive never been the 1st choice, i guess.
even w one of my best friends.
ive never been number one, you know ?
like wtf. and i really fucking hate this feeling because it just sucks.
like why cant i be your number one choice ?
why does it have to be them ?
am i not good enough like wjdksjddk
why do i keep over thinking ?
like whY ???
when will i find someone who will put me first ?
and im not even talking about it in a romantic way, just in general.
no ones put me first like im never someones day 1 A1
nope, never.
ive been here.
alone,,,,
and you know what kinda sucks too ?
i feel like i have attachment issues.
like im just afraid of everyone leaving me
like ive been holding on for too long.
idk whats wrong w me.
theres just so much that goes on in my brain.
sometimes i cant handle it.
lmao.
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