babble with andie

20 // an update

{date: 4.15.2019}

so, im kinda in the dumps rn. also i haven't been writing in here in a lil while, so id thought id just update yall. if you guys are nosey like me, you'll enjoy this lol.

so right now, i kinda just wanna let things out. thats kinda the reason i made this lil book thing in the first place. so, lets get to it.

i feel kinda sad. sad & i guess bad ? idk. i think im all over the place. i dont have ANY motivation to do anything at the moment. i have hw that im obviously not doing bc im writing this lol. like idk. right now i dont feel like me i guess ???

the end of the year is coming up & i guess im starting to just give up. & idk why. like this isnt like me.

i kinda just want to fast forward a couple of years.

or just press pause & not have to do anything.

i got a bf lol. ive been bffs w him since i was like 15 lol. im 17 now, & we've been dating for like 4 months. that makes me happy.

school is okay, im trying to push through. i should really be doing hw rn, but i think i just need to clear my mind rn.

i need to release my emotions more. & my thoughts more often. ive been feeling tired lately. not sleep tired or anything. but people tired, ya know ? i think im crawling back into my lil antisocial cave. i think i just need to recharge.

prom is next week ! thats gonna be fun lol.

i think i need to gain some sociao energy before i hang out w people. i think thats what i really need to do. i dont remember the last time i like, had a chill w myself day lol.

ugh i literally dont even know. i just want to feel like things are okay again. the weekend was so nice, i went on a double date w my best friend & her bf & we all hung out and stuff. i want things to feel calm again. not gloomy and grey lol.

i wanna see the sunshine and the green grass. i just want summer to come. :/

-a