babble with andie

21 // random emptyness

{date: 6.20.2019}

so, idk. lol. ive been feeling really empty these past 2 days but idk why. like my soul has left my body or something. i dont really feel anything at the moment. but here's a lil update on my lil boring ol' life ! lmao.

summer is finally here & im actually gonna be a senior this upcoming school year. that fucking scares the absolute shit out of me. like im growing up and i still feel like a fucking 2 year old lol. and im still getting treated like one, but oh well.

and that means college. ugh. yikes. im really scared. :( lol. im literally anything but an adult and idk how im gonna make it on my own. but i know i will make it on my own but its just all so scary right now lol. i feel like theres so much on my mind that i cant process ??? i dont even know :((( i guess things are just stressing me out ? idk

oh well.

also, i feel like everytime i write here, im either angry or sad lol. or both. lmao. at least im releasing my feelings one way or another (im gonna find ya. im gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha). instead of bottling them up like before. i mean, i still kinda do but im really working hard on letting things out bc i know its really not healthy lol.

now im listening to one way or another, 1d's cover of it lol. just bc LOL. hopefully that will make me feel better bc 1d are my weakness lol. im trying to get better at typing bc i never learned and no one taught me how to type properly lol.

how did you guys learn how to type ?? lol

i also want cute handwriting. uGH I WANNA DO SO MANY THINGS BUT IM TOO LAZY. i gotta get my head in the game lol.

bUTT ! thats all i have to say bc currently i am running out of thinking juice lolololol

so, later guys !

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