babble with andie

15 // privacy

{date: 6.21.2018}

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sooo, like everyone needs privacy, right ?? like there's just some things that you wanna keep to yourself & it doesn't even have to be bad. for me, I like my privacy. I like it when people don't know every single little thing that I do. It's just fucking annoying, you feel ??

So my mom wants her fingerprint on my phone & stuff. Which would be fine, if she was open to certain topics and if she didn't tell my aunt about shit. Like I have trust issues,,,,,,,so it's kinda hard for me to trust you if you keep telling people. Even if that person won't tell anyone. Literally, I want to tell her everything that's been going on in my life, but you're just so fucking judgemental and kinda closed minded.

You literally told me that being gay is a "choice". Like if it was a fucking "choice", why do so many people try to hide it and suppress it?? Why do so many people wish they were straight?? Why do people get bullied because of it ?? Like it's not a choice. And being bi isn't a fucking phase either. That's just bullshit. Like what the actual fuck.

And I know now, society has accepted being gay, bi, trans, pan, etc. to an extent. But people still suffer from being bullied and being kicked out just bc of their sexuality.

You see, if I had a girlfriend or something, I wouldn't tell you. I know that you wouldn't approve and you would look down upon it. And if it really is a phase, that's okay too, because I'm still figuring myself out.

Why can't you just support me? And respect my privacy?? Like I don't go through your things w/o your permission. Why do you have to do that with me?? Huh?

Why do you continue to put me in a box. I literally feel trapped ! Why do you think I don't tell you much about my friends and all that ? Just the basic shit.

If you were just more open minded to things and accepted things on what they really were, maybe, just maybe, i would come to you more with my problems and stuff. But, oh well.

One day. One day, I'll move out. And be on my own. Only a few more years. Also, you need to realize that you cant control me completely. Because if I'm not gonna do it now, I'll do it when I'm older. And you can't control me when I'm on my own. Sooo,,,,, whatever. 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️

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