{date: 1.15.2018}
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So, 2018 so far has been, oh how do I say this ? I mean, ive made some good moments & stuff. But I've also made some bad moments (?) Um, things have gotten..... weird ??? I guess you could say ?? I don't even know at this point. School is just, meh. I'm definitely not ready for ANYTHING. I completely forgot everything I learned 1st semester and stuff lmao. I hung out with some of my friends so far, that was fun. oH. Im trying to learn sweet creature by the one and only, harry styles, on guitar. And oof. I got a blister lol. It's kind of a hard song to learn but at the same time it's kinda easy because you just repeat stuff.
bUT, mini rant below !
DONT FUCKING TREAT ME LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT :): and shut the fuck up, you're not royalty. Stop acting like you are. Stop acting like you didnt do anything wrong. Stop acting all high and mighty when youre not. And stop being all difficult. I bet you KNOW how hard im trying here but you just continue to not care. Im so sorry that I care so much about you. Does that even make any sense ?¿ I have to apologise for caring. I know you don't fully trust me but im really fucking trying my best here to gain your trust again. And I thought you wanted this too ?? Huh ? You SAID that a part of you wants to but the other part of you doesnt trust me. Okay, well. I have some solutions. I can try my very best to be truthful to you and just be me and just no filter. Im doing literally all of those things, yet you still act like you don't give 2 fucks about me. :): Okay (: yeah (: im fucking fine (: i love being treated like shit (:
ha ha ha (:
liKE HELLO. IM TRYING TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE AND MORE. LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE. When I said i'll do whatever it takes to make it work, I fucking meant that shit. I wasn't fucking with you bro. I mean it. But if youre not gonna try and put in effort, like. Then what's the point right ? If it's a one-sided relationship, I want out. If you trusted me, would you try then ? Huh ? Would you ? Because im taking all of my fucking energy and effort and time into this. And if youre just half-assing it. Huh. Wow. Kinda hurts lmao.
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so, i guess this is just gonna turn into an online journal, huh ? lmao - andie
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