Taste of Life

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I'm already second year and it's a usual sunday. We attended morning mass, then played sports, do our afternoon quiet time, attend another mass, and wait for our visitations. During weekdays, we have lectures and to be honest, lectures are the reason why I'm still here. Everyday, I'm fascinated about bible facts. I cannot even explain it. I'm super happy and well.

Mom and Dad are always visiting me. Last Sunday, I saw my niece Margarette. She's so big na. I promised her I'll do sleepover this coming Christmas.

I was in the garden writing in my journal. I just liked writing. It helped me a lot during the first year. I literally poured all my feelings here. Tingin ko nga, makikickout ako once someone read this.

I was writing when someone called me. It's my dad. I stood up and helped him with all he's carrying.

"Where's mom?"

"They're on the way, she picked up Margarette." I smiled upon hearing my niece's name.

"Kamusta?" He asked and I told them that I aced the christening part of the exam. He was so proud of me. I can even see on his eyes.

Dad and I are just making kwento when I heard soft giggles from Margarette running towards us. Atsi is with them too.

I carried Margarette and kissed her cheek. Atsi and Mom gave me a kiss on the cheek as well.

"Oh hindi ka pa lalabas?" Ate asked me so casually.

"Izabelle!" Saway ni Mom sakanya. Everytime she visits, she's gonna ask me that.

"Just making sure if we need to leave the car." She defended herself.

"God bless you, Sister Iza." I joked. She rolled her eyes at me. We are eating pizza brought by mom and atsi. When Ate had to say something bad.

"Eli has a boyfriend na. You guys saw on Facebook?" I paused but acted cool. I munched on my pizza and paunting sinusubuan si Margarette.

"Iza" Even Dad is so disappointed sa bunganga ng panganay niya.

"What? Troye's okay now. Unless..." she turned to me and move her brows. Umiling nalang ako. Mom tries to change the topic. But I had to ask.

"Does she look happy?" I asked Atsi.

"Yeah." Ate answered. I smiled and nodded.

This time, Margarette started on saying things we all don't understand so the topic has been changed. See? She's everything.

I am actually happy to see everyone again. Sometimes, Kuya Ian's visiting also pero he's too busy since he started his own firm. Atsi's super proud. She always jokes that she wanted to be a trophy wife. But to be honest, she's doing well also in her work.

Noong nagsisimula na dumilim, Dad wanted to go home. They're old so yung bed time nila medyo maaga na. I hugged mom, Atsi, and carried Margarette to where they parked.

I waved goodbye to their cars and watch them drive away.

It's actually not required to deactivate your social media but I chose that path ever since first year. So wala talaga akong balita. I'm just happy that she is happy. I'm still praying for her.

I head to bed early than usual. Skipping dinner since I'm still full sa pizza na dala ng pamilya ko.

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Diary Entry #579

Today, I saw the most beautiful woman I know walked down the aisle. I was so close to losing myself in front of everyone. But I also saw how her groom's crying. Like he waited for this to come.

Akala ko okay na ko. All of the other priest told me to just decline but I can't say no to her. At least I waited at the end of that aisle like I always imagined. The thing is, I'm the priest not her groom.

I  wanted to be the one to wait for her where she walks but too bad I'm literally in a different position. She looks so happy so I cannot be the one to stop the wedding I'm officiating.

I can't believe I'm here instructing them to kiss and the one to tell them they're officially married. It breaks my heart like what happened the last time we saw each other. And this is the first time I stutter at a wedding.

This is the hardest thing I've ever done....

I felt my eyes crying when I woke up. It was just a dream but I felt my heart aching. Like it's literally breaking and I can feel it. I thought it's because of the dream but I was late again to realize that I'm having a heart attack.