Let me take you on a trip~ (Enmu X Reader)

11

"... Ngh. What is this place..." I questioned once I suddenly found myself in an empty space.

Everything around me was white, something like an endless room with no barriers. I looked around the place in hopes to find something that would give me some sort of hint on where I was located, but once I turned around I saw Enmu instead, which made me lightly twitch from the unexpected surprise. He stood motionless quite far away from me and eerily smiled in my direction, it almost seemed like he stared right through me. His utterly pale face gave me the chills from how creepily he smirked, but my reaction changed almost immediately when I noticed someone else's figure standing behind him. The physique of the silhouette was female... Could that possibly be Daki..? I haven't seen her before so I had no idea how she looked like, but I didn't see the face of the shadow anyway, only a simple black silhouette of a girl that Enmu was holding by the hand... I took a step forward to make sure that my eyes weren't playing any tricks on me, but after I realised that I didn't miscalculate what I was seeing, I started running towards Enmu at full speed, yelling his name out in order for him to finally notice me, and just as I was about to touch him...

I woke up.

My eyes abruptly shot open and a silent gasp escaped my mouth, along with cold beads of sweat that formed on my forehead and dripped down my face. I noticed that I was back in the train compartment and the window blinds were closed, it was already daytime, and I didn't have a clue how much time has passed since that god awful night. Once my senses came back to me, I looked over at Enmu just to find him facing away and blankly staring at the wall, not being bothered to say anything to me after all that happened. What type of reaction even was that? He named a different woman during our intimacy and now he turns away from me and isn't bothered to even look at me?

Gosh. Such atrocious and pathetic behaviour.

I turned away and tried to fall asleep again, I had nothing else to do while it was light outside, and I was too stressed to do anything else, even talk, and after a couple of minutes of laying still, my eyes began to shut, and I slowly drifted back into dreams. I thought that falling asleep would help me escape the nightmare that I lived through a few hours ago, but unfortunately the universe itself refused to grant me even the tiniest amount of peace, and everything continued to haunt me even in my sleep.

"Seriously..? Oh lord not again.." I thought out to myself once I saw that same figure of a woman appear again, making chilly shivers run down my spine.

The atmosphere remained exactly like it was last time, the same empty space, same two individuals in front of me... The female was sitting next to Enmu and sweetly cuddling with him, slyly glaring at him before she placed her hand onto his cheek and began to approach his blushing face. Closer, and closer...

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And closer...

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No.

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This isn't what I'm thinking about.

Stop.

I refuse to believe what I'm witnessing right now.

No... NO. NO.

...

She kissed Enmu on the lips.

Instead of pulling away, Enmu gladly kissed her back as a tiny smile spread across his face, making my guts flip inside out. My world completely turned upside down as I kept gawking at the two making out without any kind of hints on pulling away. This image seemed way too real, and it made me feel like I was being torn to shreds on the inside and my heart was crushed into tiny little pieces, making me bleed internally. My body felt like it started evaporating and my bones were crumbling as I tried to scream as loud as I could, but nothing was coming out of my mouth, except for muted sounds of gasping for air. I rushed over to Enmu but he didn't seem to even see me, as if I wasn't even present there. As I continued attempting on getting my voice to break out, a sharp feeling of pain shot through my throat and I lost my ability to make any sound at all, as well as I started coughing up chunks of blood clots. My body felt so weakened, like it was about to melt into a puddle of crimson liquid and flesh, I felt so helpless to the point of nearly going insane, my hands began to uncontrollably tear my skin and scratch my body with my sharp nails, causing me to bleed in order to relieve my anxiety that hit me with full force, but it didn't seem to help, so I kept disfiguring myself until I no longer had enough strength to even breathe properly. My own body refused to listen to me and almost killed itself with my own two hands.

But suddenly...

I woke up from a sudden jolt, and I noticed Enmu sitting beside me, hugging me tightly and not letting go of me for even a split second. I wanted him to perish. I didn't want to see nor feel him close to me, but I couldn't find any power in me to push him away and flee myself, and I couldn't say anything either, no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't find the right words to say. I just laid on my back and quietly stared into the ceiling while drops of sweat slid down over to my neck, and Enmu pitifully watched me hide my suffrage, which was odd of him to do since he was a sadistic prick basically all the time, not showing mercy whatsoever when it came to other people's misfortunes.

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"Forgive me."

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"Let me explain... Just don't interrupt me, please..."