Let me take you on a trip~ (Enmu X Reader)

11

I found myself in an empty space. Everything around was white, like an empty room. I turned around and saw Enmu. He stood motionless and smiled at me, but I noticed someone else's figure standing behind him. The physique of this figure was female... Could that be... Daki..? I didn't see her face, only a simple black silhouette of a girl that Enmu was holding by the hand... I got up and started running towards him at full speed, screaming his name, and when I was just about to touch him...

I woke up.

I abruptly opened my eyes full of tears with a gasp. Cold sweat formed on my forehead. I noticed that I was back in the compartment and the window blinds were closed, it was already daytime. As my senses came back, I looked at Enmu, but he just turned away, blankly staring at the wall. What type of reaction was that? He named a different woman and now he turns away from me and isn't bother to face me? How pathetic. I turned away and tried to fall asleep again, I was too stressed to do anything, even talk, and after a couple of minutes, my eyes began to shut, and I slowly fell asleep.

I thought that falling asleep would help me escape the nightmare that I lived through a few hours ago, but it just continued to haunt me, even in my dream. That same figure appeared again, she was sitting next to Enmu and sweetly cuddling him, and then she began to approach his blushing face. 

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No.

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It's not what I'm thinking about.

No.

Stop.

No... NO, NO!!!

...

She kissed Enmu on the lips.

Instead of pulling away, Enmu kissed her back as a tiny smile spread across his face. My world turned upside down. It felt like I was torn to shreds and my heart was crushed, I was bleeding from the inside. It's like my body started to evaporate, and my bones crumbled.

Blood flowed out of my eyes. I screamed as loud as I could and rushed to Enmu, but he didn't seem to even see me, as if I wasn't even there. As I continued screaming, a sharp pain shot through my throat, I lost my voice and started coughing up blood. It was as if I had turned into a puddle of crimson liquid. I began to uncontrollably scratch myself with my sharp nails as anxiety hit me with full force until I no longer had enough strength to even breathe properly. I almost killed myself with my own hands.

But suddenly...

I woke up from a sudden jolt, and I noticed Enmu sitting beside me, hugging me tightly. I wanted him to perish. I didn't want to see nor feel him close to me, but I had no strength to push him away, and I couldn't say anything either, no matter how hard I tried. I just laid on my back and cried quietly, my tears slid down over to my neck, and Enmu pitifully watched me hide my suffrage.

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"Forgive me."

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"Let me explain... Just don't interrupt me, please..."