Let me take you on a trip~ (Enmu X Reader)

12

At first I continued to lie motionlessly, but then a sharp surge of energy pierced through my body and I tried to push Enmu away, but ended up struggling instead. I didn't want to be close to him, but he held me extremely tightly, not giving me the right to escape his embrace. When I ran out of strength, I just hung on him, as if he was my only incomprehensible support.

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"Calm now..?"

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"Now please let me explain. Daki is one of the higher ranked demons, I met her and the rest of the Upper Kizuki a while ago before I took you here. She seemed to act weird around me, she would ask me personal questions and would randomly touch me sometimes. I told her about you, but instead she threatened to harm you if I didn't compliment her, she made it seem like a joke, but I couldn't be entirely sure of her further actions. She's way stronger than me so I didn't really have a choice. Yes, this sounds extremely stupid, but it really is true. If you think that this is a weak excuse - sure. But I promise you it isn't."

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Yeah. Right. Sure.

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We sat in the same position for a couple of seconds until Enmu gently hugged me, quietly whispering apologies in my ear. He cupped my cheeks and glared into my eyes, his gaze seemed so sorrowful... Almost like he was a completely different person at this moment. I could see how much he wanted to kiss me, but I refused to look at him, so I turned away and stared into the polished wooden wall. Enmu wanted my full attention and all his actions were miserable attempts for me to look at him, he kept moving himself closer and closer, but I didn't let him get to me at all.

"Look, I'm actually very sorry." He mumbled as I witnessed him closing the distance between our faces from the corner of my eyes, feeling his breath hit my skin.

His lips gently pressed against my cheek and remained on my face for a while, but I pretended like his presence was nonexistent, so once he pulled away and saw me still staring into nothing and not daring to face him at all, he continued on with his persistence and sat closer to me. Enmu placed his slightly trembling hand on my knee, but I moved my legs further away from him, making his hand slip off onto the train's seating. I knew perfectly well that my actions surely hurt him, but I didn't really care at this point, I was more than done with him right now.

"Darling please..."

He tried his best to touch, hug or kiss me, but I simply didn't allow him to do so without saying anything and continuing to stare at the same point. Enmu attempted one last time to touch me and reached his hand out to me, but just as he was about to place it on my shoulder, I gently knocked it away from me, and he let out a barely noticeable gasp. He quietened down and remained silent for a few minutes, until he forcefully locked me in an embrace and firmly held me still.

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"Please just forgive me." Enmu muttered out as I tried to move his hands away, but instead he gripped onto me tighter and pressed me closer to him.

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"Please."

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"Okay." I finally spoke.

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"Huh..? So you do..? Is everything okay now..? Though it's clearly not but..."

I said nothing.

"Alright then." He replied emotionlessly.

He tried to kiss me one more time by starting off with gently pecking my cheeks and then gradually moving up to my lips until he finally managed to properly kiss me. I didn't bother to do it back, I just let him do what ever he wanted to do to me, and my eyes remained open the entire time. I kept constantly thinking about what he has told me in regards to the situation, I really tried to take his words seriously, because after all I loved and trusted him, but I was still doubting that what he said was remotely true. I was plunged into my thoughts so hard that even the idea of leaving him passed through my mind, but without Enmu I would really feel incomplete, and whenever I end up loosing a person I cherish... I tend to go back to being nothing. And that's not something I'd want to go through again.

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Once Enmu pulled away, he deeply glared into my empty eyes, he could tell that I was still not over everything. His hand brushed up against mine and he gently took it, tightening the grip as he grasped it with his fingers, expecting me to do the same, but my hand remained relaxed. Even by the time I got used to his touch, I still had no intentions on holding him in return, so he got up and stood right in front of me, making me look at him.

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"Listen."

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"I don't plan on letting you go. I only love you. I can see that you still hadn't gotten over it. Please forgive me whenever you feel like you need to. You're very dear to me, and I don't want to lose you." He said as he pressed my exhausted body close to him.

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"Enmu."

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"I already told you. You are forgiven."

"But-"

"Just stop apologising."

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"You have no idea what I went through. You knocked me out with your Blood Demon Art and I saw two nightmares in a row, and let me tell you, they weren't pleasant. I don't think you know that feeling when your entire ribcage feels like it's being crushed and your lungs are on the verge of an explosion. You don't know how it truly feels. Imagine me naming some other man's name while having sex. How would you feel."

"Darling I-"

"Yeah exactly. You'd hate it. More or less, you would harm me."

"No I wo-"

"Yes you would. I'm sure of that. And trust me, I wanted to hurt you just the way you hurt me. I wanted you to feel my distress, but if you would, you'd be completely destroyed by now. And if you think-" Enmu stopped me and didn't let me finish as he forcibly pulled me into a kiss.

"Just what do you think you're doi-" I got cut off once again as I pushed him away, but he immediately grabbed my hands and held them above my head, not letting me escape.

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"I know you liked that.~" He said, flashing a faint smirk at me.

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"Literally perish." I replied, pushing him away for good.

I sat down and turned my back to him, I didn't care about his feelings at the moment and I really wasn't feeling up to anything right now. As the train got closer to our destination, we silently continued to sit and wait for the tension to decrease a little, but after all this I still felt my heart ache as our compartment became quiet. This fight has really impacted me in a horrible way today.

I just wish that everything wouldn't go this far.