✨ 𝕄𝕪 𝕄𝕦𝕤𝕖 ✨

61: We Cant Keep Doing This

"suddenly there's a knock on the door..." 

I look through the window to check who it is. Its Daniel. I open the door with a smile. "Hey, Dani! I was just about to leave. Jack and Hailey left for their doctor's appointment and I was bored so." I took a small breath as the events from a few weeks ago replayed in my head. And then his words:

"this means nothing okay?"

A slow frown almost forms on my face but I cover it up with a fake smile. "What are you doing here?" I ask and he put his hand behind his head clearly nervous. "I was wondering if I could maybe stop by and we couldn't hang out. We haven't hung out just us in a while and I miss it." Yeah, we haven't hung out because it hurts to see your face knowing I can't have you back when I want to. "...plus it's supposed to rain so going out might not be the best idea." He finishes his sentence and I look behind him to see the cloudy and dark sky. "I missed you too, Dani. Come in. I have some wine in the cupboard and Netflix loaded up." I let him in and closed the door taking a deep breath. I grab the wine and two glasses and as I go into the living room to sit on the couch, I see Daniel already cuddled up in the blanket waiting for me. My heart skipped a beat as he smiled and saw me. I set the wine and glasses on the counter. "I'm going to go change into something more comfortable. I'll be right back." He nods and I go upstairs to change. I grab a pair of shorts and a random hoodie and change.

Daniel's pov:

She walked downstairs and my mouth slightly opens when I see what she's wearing. My hoodie. The first one I gave her. She still has it. I don't even think she remembers it's mine. She looks amazing. No. You can't. You're just going to break her heart again. As she sits next to me, she pours the wine for us both. She cuddles up next to me and I get butterflies as I feel her again. She's so nice and warm and her scent feels like home. It hurts not being with her but I can't. She doesn't want me and she can't have me ruin her life again. Especially when it's just getting better. "I hope Jack and Hailey are okay. They said they would call me if something was wrong but. I can't help but worry about them." She said in a quiet tone. "I'm sure they're fine. They're probably going to get food after too. They should. They haven't been out together in a while." She nods and smiles as she puts her head on my shoulder. The room was dark. The light was only slightly coming from the windows and the brightness from the screen. The only noises that we heard were the TV and the heavy rainfall outside. We were in each other's arms in the silence. It was nice. Calming. Without thinking I rubbed her side and kiss her head. Idiot. I felt my heart start to race. She looked up at me with glassy eyes. "Oh my God I-I'm so sorry. It's a.. habit." I stuttered out my words out of embarrassment. She just looked at me. With her beautiful deep eyes. I put my hand on the side of her neck and she's staring at my lips. Fuck it. I smash my lips into hers and pull her neck close to me. Our kiss was long and passionate. Feeling her soft lips on mine again was euphoric. We pulled away and I felt her hand move onto my chest. We kiss again and they turn into heated kisses. We start making out and my heart is filled with butterflies and I'm swooning. I missed her so much. She suddenly stops and gets up. "We can't. We can't do this again." I get up and walk to her, putting my hands on her waist. She faces away from me but after a few seconds, she slowly turns around and puts one hand on the back of my neck and the other in my hair. I'm pulled down to lay my lips on hers once again and I pull her waist close to me. "Fuck it. I need you." She said in between kisses. I slightly dipped her. "I need you too." I picked her up snd lied her on the couch. I took her shirt off and she took off mine. Well shit.

We lied there on the couch. Both out of breath, with her head on my chest. Again. "We can't.. keep doing this.." She said in between breaths and we both laughed. She moved up and put her face in my neck and her hand in my hair. I missed this feeling. She lovingly kissed my neck a few times and nuzzled into me. "I missed you, Dani. I missed you so much." I felt my stomach flutter at her words. "I missed you so much more. You have no idea." I kissed her head. We paused whatever was on TV so we could just listen to the rain. It was no nice. So peaceful. "Brook, I want you. Trust me when I say I do. I.. I just can't hurt you again. You need a break from me and from all the drama and just some time without worrying about a boyfriend." I felt her tense up and get sad. I felt terrible but it would be worth it for her in the long run. "But look at us. We can't even keep away from each other." She laughed. "We can try something." She lifted her head and looked at me. "Let's do this. See each other. Kiss, make out, fuck. But let's not put a label on it. And let's not tell anyone either. Just like before." She said and smiled sadly.

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