christmas time is my favorite time of the year,
it was never this extraordinary even when i was growing up,
but still it was the only times i can remember fondly.
sitting early morning watching christmas cartoon specials,
wrapping and opening presents,
being around the whole family instead of just some.
as i got older christmas seemed to lose its magic,
i always loved and needed magic.
but the magic came down with you.
when you came down for christmas and i saw you so many times,
it didn't make up for the months of missing you,
but it came close.
i was so upset at first,
i had just woken up and i saw your text and thought i was dreaming,
somewhere i still have my response,
"i don't know if this is real yet".
the timing was immaculate,
almost as if the fact i printed a picture of us earlier in the day
summoned you.
i was so angry.
you just disappeared and came back with a simple "hey".
and as hurt as i was i couldn't turn you away,
i missed you too much.
so i let the anger fade and fell into the magic,
and somehow your bed,
it was as if you had never left.
until you did again.
but if that's all that you'll be then its enough for me,
my christmas angel.
i think that suits you
