I've watched a movie or two that I haven't seen since you.
This time I didn't cry or wish you were by my side,
at the beginning I thought of you and how you loved to watch with me.
My heart didn't fail me and my courage didn't desert me.
After that thought passed, I didn't think of you until now.
I'm reclaiming things I used to enjoy and lost because of you.
Things we did together and were full of love and laughs, then were marked with tear stains and a longing for you.
But I'm better now.
There are still things that will always make me think of you, but it feels so good knowing I can have things back.
I'm reclaiming and praying someday everything will be mine again and the thought of you won't strike fear or cause a tear.
Today might not be the day, but it's a new beginning and this time I won't have you in mind for my happy ever after.
12/05/2020
