You kept it all even my heart
You kept everything I ever gave you,
anything that had to do with me.
Movie tickets, little toys and prizes I'd find and think of you so I had to give them to you, every note I left on your car, or snuck to you, even the empty can of my favorite smell on you that I got you for christmas.
You kept it all.
Spanning almost 5 years.
You kept everything I gave you, including my heart.
But you couldn't keep the promises you made me or my hand in yours when people were around.
You couldn't keep me in your heart the way I kept you in mine,
you would never allow it.
There wasn't enough space for me and you refused to make room,
so I made myself smaller to try and fit.
I helped you move things around and finally when there was a spot for me.
You gave it to someone else.
I didn't know anything else but you,
I had forgotten who I was and only knew me with you.
This shouldn't hurt me now as much as it does but yet here I am shaking and sobbing and cursing the sky for whoever allowed me to meet you.
I wish I could say I wouldve loved to have never met you,
but you meant so much to me,
the thought of never having you to begin with is worse than the pain I suffer now.
But I'd give anything for this pain to finally end.
Please, please give me my heart back.
12/15/2020
