My (endless) Year

Temporary

This isn't finished, but I'm sharing here for now until this temporary feeling ends

I don't want to live but I couldn't put my family through losing someone else
so I sit and suffer
Every day I say the same "just have to get through the day"
People tell me when I make their days better
But I'm waiting for my day to get better
for me to get better
for me to actually live and enjoy living
than just feel like i'm fighting only to survive