Our Secret Dream 2

NYC Baby - Day 1

After listening to my handsome fiancé, Quinn, Addi and I are all flying out to New York for some much needed wedding planning. Even if this is officially the final thing left on our To Do Lists. Who would have thought in less than 8 months Bryan and I will be saying I Do!

Addi being the gem she is has booked me some appointments with wedding boutiques, fingers crossed we will meet someone who we connect with and can become my designer. I think she told me we have 6 places in total to visit today. All of which she said are incredible designers, who are very eager to design my dress. I feel like the majority of them just want it so that they can clout chase and profit from our names. I guess I'll know for sure once I meet them today.

Quinn's also booked us some places to look at bridesmaid dresses, as much as I'd love to just let everyone have a say we decided it would just be best for the three of us to decide what they'd wear. Having Quinn, Addi, Amelie, Charly and Bella as bridesmaid is insane but it's what I want. I know for sure Quinn and Addi have incredible taste and won't pick something that won't fit with the style for the wedding or anything that I won't like.  They will do me proud. Besides Quinn is my maid of honour so she knows me better than anyone.

Bryan and the boys are flying out in two days to join us for some fun whilst we are out here. They didn't find the idea of dress shopping very fun when they had mentioned it to them. Plus it's bad voodoo to have the groom see the dress before the wedding and between you and me I do kinda believe in the superstition. Bella is going to be coming with them as she wanted to spend some more time with Chris. Plus my girl Charly is doing some dress shopping in New York next week once we have an idea of what we'd like. Addi is going to reserve a few numbers for her in one of the boutiques. Once we have this we will tell Charly and she will come have a look in between a few DJ gigs she has next week.

I do have one problem though. Something that I fear is going to become a huge problem not only for me but for Bryan. I don't know how I get pulled or ripped into these sticky situations. I'm not sure if you remember but a while back when we announced our engagement Tyler had asked me if I'd have his girl Alyssa be a bridesmaid. At the time they had only really known each other a short period of time and I hadn't even met the girl. So I instantly felt awkward about it and found a way to tell him No. The situation I have now is Tyler and Alyssa are officially together and have been going steady for a couple months now...I've met her a few times and she's really nice and I like her. When Tyler's asked me I've said that I know her and she's a friend. Not a friend like Quinn, Addi, Charlie, Dixie, Charly or Amelie but she's a new friend.

The sticky situation that might happen over this weekend once the boys join us is that Tyler will find out that I've asked Bella to be a bridesmaid. Who is officially Chris's girlfriend. I know they've been on a break recently but they are still together and would have been had Tristan not gotten himself involved. I feel like he is going to kick of and make a big deal out of it seeing as I've asked Bella and not Alyssa.
I haven't done it to be malicious or anything like that I genuinely like Bella and we have become so close she's become one of my closest friends.

We spoke a lot before she came out to LA and she's been living with Bryan and I for the past two months. You tend to grow close to people when you live with them. Not to mention all the shit that's happened between people in the group.
Bella x Chris
Chris x Tristan
Chris x Skylar
Skylar x Chris x Bella
Skylar x Tristan
Bryan x Chris
Bryan x Tristan
Bryan x Bella

We have all had so much to handle and it's put such a heavy strain within the group but also brought some of us closer together. I haven't kept these concerns to myself either, Bryan is well aware of my concerns and oddly enough he's not worried at all. He has made it very clear that it's our wedding, it's about us and no one else so we don't have to worry or include everyone if we don't want to. Especially not when it comes to making decision. We don't owe anyone explanations or justifications as to why we are doing something for our big day.