Our Secret Dream 2

You + Me = ....

It's been a while since I've released any music. I guess being engaged, planning a wedding and dealing with family drama you don't really get a lot of free time to go on photo shoots or make time to release stuff. As much as I'd love to spend hours upon hours recording in the studio each day my life and family just wouldn't allow that....

Before coming out to New York, I'd been really hard on myself, to the point I was really suffering. Mentally, emotionally, you make it I for sure had felt it at some point. Keeping a strict work schedule to ensure that I had all my new music recorded was intense. I know I said I'd love to spend all
My time in the studio but when your forced into the situation out of obligation rather than choice it becomes a burden on your body, mind and soul.
  You'd think after having songs recorded things would get easier but that's just not the case. Being a damn perfectionist turns everything I do into a harder and more challenging experience. I guess I just want to take pride in every aspect of my work from the lyrics to the album.

I'd been driving Bryan crazy too, asking him to listen to every demo and drafted track on the album multiple times. Getting his opinion and feedback so I can improve it. Which might sound adorable of him but when your man constantly tells you it's incredible after the first playback is not helpful. I love that he's proud of me and believes in my work and skill...but how can he listen to my music and his breath and words be stripped away? Is it because he loves me? Or is it because he believes that I have talent and have a future within this industry? Could it be that I have both...

*Awkward laugh* I guess my need to be perfect and the best at everything I do makes me difficult and allows my insecurities to take control. Forgive me for I am only human and thankfully I have found myself a man who loves me completely, insecurities and all.
Nothing can truly be perfect, everything has an imperfection. Sighing I try to process my thoughts before I fall deeper into this abyss.

Anyhoo, after a month or so I finally have my album finished which not only does Bryan, Dom and Mel love. I love too.

It makes me laugh, cry, smile & fall deeper in love with Bryan. Every emotion I've been feeling in the past two months I've poured into these songs.
I guess it became a form of release for me, putting all my thoughts and emotions down into my music. Have you ever heard of the saying 'pouring yourself into your work?' Well that's exactly what I do, every ounce of emotion my followers feel whilst listening to my music has already been felt by me first. I like to think that it brings us all closer together.

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All that's left for me to do now is make the official alert on the gram highlighting the release. Not to mention getting people to download the prerelease sample.

Which brings me back to the present, were I am currently sitting in the lounge with my laptop on my lap and an iced coffee in my hand. Sipping the delicious beverage as I get my Insta post ready for release.

Fingers crossed everyone loves it! It's been a while since I've released tracks with only myself singing, which makes it all  the more scary.

@SkylarRiver

Comments;-

@SkylarRivers I hope you all love the new album, I'd love to hear from you with why you think I called the album 'You + Me = 3'
  ⤵️ @Brylar_Fan Pregnant? You + Bryan = Baby?? (3 people) 🧐🤔
    ⤵️ @Detective.In.Training I don't think she's pregnant, probably more to do with a personal matter. Either way I love the album cover & name! ❤️ @SkylarRivers

@TikTokRoom Is this a possible confirmation to Skylar & Bryan expecting a baby? Maybe that's why they are getting married? #SkylarBaby?? #parentstobe?? #shamwedding? 🤔
    ⤵️ @Brylar_Fan RUDE! Or maybe, just maybe they are in love and wish to spend the rest of their lives together! It's sick that you even suggested that and don't get me started on the hashtags. 😡😤
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       ⤵️ Thank you, it's crazy how others can spin such an innocent situation into something toxic! It warms both mine and @BryanWilliams hearts to know we have fans and family like you out there supporting and watching our backs! ❤️
         ⤵️ @Brylar_Fan You don't have to thank me, I'll always fight and support you both!!!
           ⤵️ @BryanWilliams Thank-you! Your one in a million. We are lucky to have you as a part of our extended family!

@ChrisWilliams You already know I have this on pre-release Cookie! You've done amazing cookie! As always another No 1 album! #Artistoftheyear! #MusicNo1 #bestfriend
    ⤵️ Thanks Teddy! I'm not sure about No. 1 but I'm just happy to get my music out there 🙃
      ⤵️ @ChrisWilliams Well I already know it's going to blow up and take the charts by storm!

@BryanWilliams Finally, I can't wait for everyone to hear it! Love the title. Love the songs. And I Love You baby. xx
  ⤵️ Why you gotta be so darn adorable? x
      ⤵️ @BryanWilliams Only for you. 😘 Remember to breathe baby, we gotta keep you healthy! x
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@QuinnTaylors My girl been hard at work! Let me just get this pre-ordered and added to my favourite playlist!
⤵️ Always busy grafting me! Even whilst we are out here having fun in New York I can't completely forget about work. Shall we have a girls night out tonight? Forget about our men? 😶
⤵️ @QuinnTaylor Sounds like a great idea to me, @ItsAddisonRae What do you think, you down for some drinks?
  ⤵️ @ItsAddisonRae Always. I'm game! We might even hit a nightclub or two 🤭
   ⤵️ HELL YEAH! #GirlsGoneWild #GirlsOnTour #DrinkingLikeWeSingle
    ⤵️ @BryanWilliams Like HELL you are #DrinkingLikeWeSingle Your an engaged woman, soon to be MY WIFE. Don't make me be the dominate fiancé and hunt you down and prove that your a taken woman..😏
   ⤵️ Is that a threat or a promise? xox
     ⤵️ @BryanWilliams I think you already know. Just remember I will always find you baby. No matter what I will always make sure these men know that your mine and only MINE!
      ⤵️ You always seem to get me with those .... #Promises_Promises
⤵️ @QuinnTaylors We can always play make believe and just you know play...
   ⤵️ @DomScirrotto I'm with Bryan you are not acting like your single, your mine Quinn! I will come find you and carry you back to our room if I have to!
     ⤵️ Is that so @DomScirrotto Just remember who you belong to!

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Laughing I shut off my laptop and finish the remainder of my coffee. My man do be territorial when it comes to me and other men. Not that I would ever look at another man or even entertain their interest. I just know that as much as I've missed him and he's missed me we have to have some alone time with our friends and Bryan deserves to have fun with his brother and friends whilst we are out here in LA.